TopTenTuesday - The things I think, but do not say...

I got inspired by Janis' courageous post in her transient account, I felt the need to be brave myself and just let this out.

BTW, if you were wondering, this is one of the reasons why there hasn't been TTT for the past few weeks.

Because, everytime I felt the urge to write the TopTen, this was the only theme that I could think of. And I can't get it out of my mind.

So here it is:

No contexts. No holds barred. Just me listing down the TopTen things I think, but do not say.

1. You used me. You never viewed me as a friend and you still don't. You think I'm a meal ticket or whatever other idiom that I can't think of just now. How do you sleep at night knowing that you've just abused someone? Not literally, of course, but you know what I mean. And you in all of your "user-friendly" persona have the audacity to judge me and set me aside as if I'm the one at fault. How dare you?

2. I don't like it. I didn't say anything, because you were so proud of it. And you kept explaining everything and I just didn't want to see your face be filled with disappointment if I told you that I thought it wasn't brilliant... But really, I gotta say, it's not that good.

3. You're overrated. Seriously.

4. I've lost all my faith and hope in Men because of you. Don't feel bad about that though. I'm even thankful, because now, I know what to really expect. I mean, I've known before... But you've somehow solidified my belief even more. So, thank you.

5. Why do you keep saying things that you're not sure are true? Why do you keep making assumptions? I'd confront you, but I don't want to fight. So I just let my annoyance sit... Besides, I know I'm annoying too, sometimes, so hey, give and take right?

6. Don't feel bad if I don't comment... It's not personal. It's just that whatever I would've commented would have either wasted your time or hurt you in some sense. And that's why I opted to just shut up.

7. You remind me of him and he reminds me of you... I know that's not really such a weird thing. But the wild part about it is that I sometimes forget who I'm talking to, not literally, but essentially. So if I start talking to either of you funny, ignore me, I'm just thinking you're the other person. Oh and if that's not weird enough... I also think that both of you are love material. My freaky-ass mind is just all blarflarnyarmlargaahhh.

8. I think I could fall in love with you. In fact, I probably already am... I'm just waiting for you to feel head-over-heels, blown-away, socks-knocked-off, crazy and madly in love with me before I show you that I am actually capable of being seriously in love and not just being all flirty.

9. Sometimes your sarcasm stings. But I brush it off, because I know I'm just like you.

10. Go ahead. You can log back in now. I know that you logout everytime so I won't see you on the strip. Don't worry. It's ok. You're not my first stalker. And I'm pretty sure you won't be the last. Thanks for making me feel special and somewhat freaked out. How sweet of you.