I just called the trainer. And yayyy. The class is on. It's on and poppin'.
I can't wait! She says that she's not sure if anyone else will come... And so it might just be me in the class.
I feel much better knowing, I may not have to make a fantastic fool of myself in front of a bunch of people... Seeing as I'm a TaeBo virgin. Sigh...
I wonder if I should ask her to be gentle.
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So... Some things went down today.
Oh my gulay. Kagulowww!
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It's surprising how easily anger/hate/spite can turn into pity...
I pity the foo!
Haha. I jest.
No, but really... I'm just all like, "Awww... Kawawa naman."
Especially, after I read the email... Even if it was filled with spite for/around/about me, I kind of felt sorry for the fact na wala na lang talagang ibang masabi...
I'm tempted to do something just to justify the claim sa sobrang awa ko. Tsk. I mean, if you've ever seen a person down, desperately grappling and clawing the ground with bare bruised and bloody fingers just to find something to throw at you... Di ka ba maawa? Ako, parang naawa ako kahit papano... Super desperate na kasi.
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I'm sorry about how things are. I know you're hurting. I don't want it to be this way, but the thing is, it already is, and I have no means to make it better. I wish I did, but I don't. I hope you know that I love you, though.
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I was telling a friend how I think we're like a deep hole in the middle of a kiddie pool.
And you can interpret that in any way you'd like.
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It's weird... I just realized that I'm not the person I was four years ago... Humor me as I pretend to have a conversation with Four-Years-Ago-Me.
Four-Years-Ago-Me: Who are you?
Me Now: I'm you four years later.
Four-Years-Ago-Me: Really? But you're so... Jaded.
Me Now: I'm not jaded!
Four-Years-Ago-Me: So how's married life? I assume you've found our soulmate and if my calculations are correct, you are now pregnant.
Me Now: Well, alright... Now, I'm jaded. Those things haven't happened yet.
Four-Years-Ago-Me: Really? I could have sworn... You're not even pregnant?
Me Now: No.
Four-Years-Ago-Me: But you're so fat.
Me Now: Gaahhh. I loathe me. And yet I wish to be you again. Sooo... Oblivious to everything and yet so certain. Still believing and fairytales and still willing to embrace everything just like that with such hope.
Four-Years-Ago-Me: What happened to you?
Me Now: You'll find out... Just keep crying until you can't cry anymore. Breakdown and cry. Just let it all out. Don't lie to yourself by saying it's ok and it means nothing... It'll just come back to haunt you like it's haunting me now. ...Oh and don't get your hair straightened and don't take your braces off just yet. And by the way... Remember that fully manual SLR you saw a few months ago that you wanted to buy? Never gonna happen. You're going digital. It's not so bad. It's probably just not how you thought it would be.
Four-Years-Ago-Me: Wow. Ok. Just tell me one thing... Have we found JB? ...
Me Now: Uhmm... About that...
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18:38.
I have Taebo in about an hour.
Yayyy.
Kissy kissy.
im a taebo virgin too!!
ReplyDeletegood luck heheheheh
ReplyDeletehello december
The fact that you love me is enough. I know that you don't want it to be this way. I know! Love you! mwaaaaaaaah! When I'm free next week I will be coming! waheheheh! Invader me! nayahehehheh! Yung Rocky Road cupcake ko ha! waheheh! mwaaaaaaah!
ReplyDeleteteka teka pano naman ako sama ako kayct
ReplyDeletemy four-years-ago-me has been deleted. and that was the time i was actually doing taebo. rofl.
ReplyDeleteGaaahhh... It hurts just the first time. Blahahaha. I wasn't even able to finish the whole hour. LOL. 30 minutes lang tas, my heartrate kind of went haywire, so sabi nung instructor mag-floor exercises na lang muna kami.
ReplyDelete:D Thanks. Not much luck though. I lasted 30 minutes. Not bad for a first timer, though.
ReplyDeleteHi December! :) I wonder if I'll make it.
I really do love you. :) Mmmwah!
ReplyDeleteNext week? Sige. tell me which day para ma-prepare ko... Love you!
Love ka din n'yan. Fo sho.
ReplyDeleteHaha.
ReplyDeleteGoodness, I thought I will deads kanina. LMAO.
Now, I feel so ... ouch.
Haha.
but wasn't it fun? and did i tell you about the huffing and puffing? i think i did. that's yoga plus taebo baby. LOL.
ReplyDelete30 mins?! not bad for a virgin. later on you'll be asking for more! lol
ReplyDeletenaadik ba? more more more more
ReplyDeletesure ka ba SED? baka magbago isip mo! ayaw ko ng ganon eh! i want definite answer and plan yun lang! waheheh!
ReplyDeleteHuffing and puffing, yes. Blahahaha. Goodness.
ReplyDeleteYeah, we did a little bit of Pilates and Yoga for the final 30 minutes.
I haven't done Yoga in like ... 4 years. Tsk.
Sun salutations were my favorite. :) Hihi.
Blahahaha. Taebo? Wag na muna. Goodness... Pilates & Yoga na lang muna.
ReplyDeleteka taray naman..... alam naman na may alalay akong dalawang makulit sa mga panahong iyon
ReplyDeleteGO GURL! Stay motivated yun lang ang kailangan dyan! You have to have a gut level reason para tuloy tuloy ka! wahooooooooooooooo! Hello December! *winks*
ReplyDeleteweekend siguro gurl! or weekday! wahehehheh! mwaaaaaaaaah! sige I will tell you okie dokie! mwaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
ReplyDeletekitam week day talaga ayaw talaga akong isama....
ReplyDeletengorkies! if your really coming then weekend it is! sure ka ba!?
ReplyDeletehindeee
ReplyDeletehehehehehhehehe
nanggugulo lang
I don't think motivation ang kailangan.
ReplyDeleteI'm totally motivated. My body is just not cooperating.
Blahahaha.
Okie dokie, rubber duckie. :) See you soon!
ReplyDelete4 years ago, i was 20sumthing years old.. tsk..
ReplyDeleteWow taebo! Hehe. Go girl! And hello 4 years ago you!
ReplyDeleteFour years ago, I was TWENTY years old. :(
ReplyDeleteGaaahhh. Ayoko na mag-Taebo. Blahahaha.
ReplyDeletePilates and Yoga na lang. LMAO. Tsk.
don't be sad.. pa'no na ko :(
ReplyDeleteAwww. :(
ReplyDelete*Hugsss
Hugsss back :D
ReplyDeleteanong nangyari!? nayehehehhe! wala pala!
ReplyDeleteHi BABE! mwaaaaaaaah!
LMAO. I told you na eh. Blahahaha.
ReplyDeleteLangya. Lakas topak eh.
Shhh.
oh! are we talking about taebo here? i thought it's something else. =D
ReplyDeleteBlahahaha.
ReplyDeleteNaughty girl.