Monday, September 14, 2009

Dear Soundtrack,

"It wasn't raining yet, but it was a little misty on that warm MAY night. And my heart was pounding. My inner voice resounding, begging me to turn away, but I just had to see your face to feel alive ... Every time I feel the need, I envision you caressing me and go back in time to relive the splendor of you and I on the rooftop that rainy night."

"And you are the only one and my everything and for you this song, I sing. All my life, I prayed for someone like you... And I thank God that I finally found you."

"Those dreams of yours are shining on distant shores and if they are calling you away, I have no right to make you stay..."

"You can dance every dance with the guy who gives you the eye, let him hold you tight. You can smile every smile for the man who held your hand 'neath the pale moon light. But don't forget who's takin' you home... And in whose arms you're gonna be. So darlin' save the last dance for me."

"Like a train on a track, like spokes inside a wheel, involuntary motion, like rolling downhill and there's no way to stop it. It's a natural thing, like sunrise and dusk, snowflakes, waterfalls, same thing like us."

"Hey there Delilah, don't you worry about the distance. I'm right there if you get lonely. Give this song another listen. Close your eyes, listen to my voice, it's my disguise. I'm by your side. ... Hey there Delilah, I know times are getting hard, but just believe me, girl, someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar. We'll have it good. We'll have the life we knew we would. My word is good."

"Oceans apart. Day after day. And I slowly go insane. I hear your voice on the line, but it doesn't stop the pain."

"Somewhere beyond the sea... Somewhere waiting for me. My lover stands on golden sands and watch the ships that go sailing. Somewhere beyond the sea, she's there watchin' for me. If I could fly like birds on high then straight to her arms I'd go sailin'. It's far beyond the star, it's near beyond the moon. I know beyond a doubt, my heart will lead me there soon. We'll meet beyond the shore. We'll kiss just as before. Happy we'll be, beyond the sea... And never again I'll go sailin'."

"Romeo and Juliet, they never felt this way, I bet. So don't underestimate my point of view. ... Cherish the joy, you keep bringing it into my life, I'm always singing it. Cherish your strength, you got the power to make me feel good, and baby I perish the thought of ever leaving, I never would..."


"I just can't look it's killing me and taking control. Jealousy, turning saints into the sea..."

"I never ever cheated. I never ever lied. So you can stop asking, asking me why, why I never left you and why I kept it real and why I'm still with you. You should've known better than to think I would leave. You should've known better than to doubt me. It don't matter if you're up, matter if you're down. Either way, I'm gonna be around. You should've known that I would stay by your side. You should've known your girl was gonna ride or die..."

"How can you just walk away from me? When all I can do is watch you leave? ... Take a look at me now... 'Cause there's just an empty space. There's nothing left here to remind me just the memory of your face. ... I wish I could just make you turn around. Turn around and see me cry. There's so much I need to say to you. So many reasons why. ...Take a look at me now, 'cause I'm still standing here."

"Dying inside 'cause I can't stand it. Make or break up. Can't take this madness. We don't even really know why, all I know is baby, I try and try so hard to keep our love alive. If you don't know me at this point then I highly doubt you ever will. I really need you to give me that unconditional love I used to feel. It's a mistake if we just erase it from our hearts and minds and I know we said let go, but I kept on hanging on, inside I know it's over. You're really gone. It's killing me, 'cause there ain't nothing that I can do."

"What hurts the most is being so close and having so much to say and watching you walk away... And never knowing what could have been and not seeing that loving you was what I was trying to do..."


As Always,
D.

05/13/02 - 09/13/09

3 comments:

  1. You called yesterday to basically say that you care for me, but you're just not in love.

    Immediately, I pretended to be feeling similarly, and led you to believe I was ok to just walk away from the one thing that's unyielding and sacred to me.

    And I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it, and I'm going to extremes to prove I'm fine without you. But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind underneath the 'guise of smiles, gradually I'm dying inside.

    Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly, 'cause I don't want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering. So I wear my disguise 'til I go home at night and then I break down and cry.

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