Dear S.,

How are you?

I don't know what came over me, but I found myself re-reading old blogs. Funny how much you tend to forget in a year and nine months, let alone three years.

I would never actually say this to your face, but I realize that I don't even really miss you anymore. Maybe it's the distance. It's funny, because with the distance, I should probably miss you... But I don't.

Sure, we're still friends... But it's just not the same. For me at least... I'm just going through the motions and I know that's not fair, but try as I might, there's just nothing now. I guess we just drifted apart. And now we're too far from each other that it's just pointless and it would take too much effort to try and go back.

I can't even remember how we used to be... I'd have to look at the archives just so I can remember it, but I've somehow lost interest...

You know what's funnier? History repeated itself. We've talked about this before, I think... I don't remember... But yeah, history decided to be an ass. I can't tell if this is more intense than before, because like I said, I can't even remember how it used to be.

It's a little sad, though... How things like this happen. And I don't know what's worse, feeling angry or just not feeling anything at all. This is just like me to feel guilty about being apathetic.

But I guess that's just how it is. ...And that's how it will be.


As Always,
D.