Dear 15:36,

It's funny how the littlest things will make you realize the greatest things... As of late, I've been noticing that you've felt, if not, noticed the shift. And in turn you are now acting upon that shift. I'm glad. I mean, it saddens me that it can no longer be like how it was, but the end will most likely justify the means... And in the end, our separate well-beings are what matter.

I know that I could have spared myself from a few embarassing if not utterlingly humiliating instances and a couple of collateral damages could have been avoided if I'd just done what I was supposed to do when I was supposed to do them... But right now, at least, I could say without a shadow of a doubt that I've done all I can. I whipped the horse 'til it bled dry and I exhausted my resources, not to mention you and me.

Now, apart from the realization of having to let a few things go, I've also come to realize that there are certain defects in character that can never be repaired, but at the same time, those defects can't be tolerated... On both sides, too. And in that sense, we both win or we both lose, so I guess fair's fair. Depending upon your definition of fair, of course.

Under normal circumstances, this would be a sad thing, but you and I both know that I've never been normal. ...I'm learning to live without you. And since my emotions are almost always on fastforward, pretty soon, I probably won't even miss you. I know you've noticed that and I'm glad that you've decided to learn to live without me, too. It's making the process a lot more easier.

Bye.


As Always,
D.