Danabelle in Five O'Clock Shorts

I woke up at 5:30 today...

But I just rolled over and tried to sleep again.

Tired. Tired. Tired.

...But I have a plan.

The plan is that I wake up at 5am daily. ...And you know. Do stuff.

LOL.

Like that's ever really going to happen.

Pfsh.

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I've been reluctant to lose weight for the past few years.

Partly because, masarap kayang kumain... But mainly because tuwing pumapayat ako nasasayang ang ganda ko. Observe...

1996, sumexy ako... Na-in love ako... Nasayang ang ganda ko. Umiyak pa ako.

1998, sumexy ako ulit... Na-in love ako ulit... Nasayang ulit ang ganda ko. Umiyak ulit ako.

2002, sumexy ulit ako... Nabaliw ako... Nasayang ulit ang ganda ko. Naging alchoholic pa ako.

2004, sumexy na naman ako... Nabola ako... Nasayang na naman ang ganda ko for the nth time.

2006, sumexy ako ng konti... Pero narealize kong baka maloka na naman ako... Kaya lumamon na lang ako.

Now... Eto na naman ako... Magpapasexy na naman ako. Pero I've learned...

Di na ako mai-inlove. Di na ako magpapabola. Di ko na hahayaang masayang ang ganda ko.

MAGPAPA-PICTURE MUNA AKO, para may remembrance man lang if ever.

Boohahaha.

Pampam ampf.

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The first day of the week almost always seem to suck.

I haven't even gotten to the first half of the day and already...

Tenants have bugged me. Customers have bugged me. And Marlon Brando and Superlolo have irked me to my core.

Maybe it's just me.

Of course it's just me. I'm probably just not in the mood.

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There are some things that my job requires that I can no longer do...

Being an administrative assistant may sound like such an easy job... And it most probably is.

But the fact of it is, that there are certain things that this job requires that makes me feel like I'm no longer human.

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Early this morning, on my way to work, I just couldn't stop myself from blurting out how excited I am to start my courses.

Three months more.

Come soon.

Please.

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Dear Song,

I sang you yesterday and I cried. Pero pinilit parin kitang tapusin... Kasi sabi nila, I should confront whatever it is that needs to be confronted. ...If not just to make up for something that I should have done a long time ago...

Sana dumating yung araw na mak-kwento ko na yun ng hindi ako naiiyak. Sana dumating yung araw na makakanta kita ng buong buo ng nakangiti ako. Sinubukan ko na kasing kalimutan... Sinubukan ko nang balewalain... Sinubukan ko narin i-deny. Pero bumabalik at bumabalik parin... Paulit na lang ng paulit ulit.

Sana dumating yung araw na sabay na ulit ang beat ng puso ko at ng utak ko.

Kasi ngayon... Nawala na naman ang rhythm ko. My heart is trailing a half a second late to my mind... Or vice versa. However way you look at it, wala na naman ako sa tiyempo.


As Always,
D.

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Sometimes, I wish I could click undo... Of course with everything that I've done, I'd be clicking for a long time... I wish I could just declare "Do over!" and everything would magically go back to where it started.

Sometimes I wish that I didn't know too much.

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I'm sorry if I'm being such a wet blanket today...

The first day of the week almost always seem to suck...

Today's shorts are just keeping up with that trend, I guess.

Sorry sorry. Kissy kissy.