New Year's B&W polka dot nails are über festive. Haha. Of course the right hand looks like crap again. I wish I was ambidextrose.

Dear 2009,

And so we're here... Before you go, I just wanted to thank you...

You've been quite an interesting year right from the start.

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/761/
http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/763/

Thank you for the chaos...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/804/

Thank you for giving me the time to reminisce...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/811/

Thank you for realizations...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/816

...that weren't comforting. LOL.

But thank you, because despite the sadness, there always seemed to be a sliver of hope...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/822/

Thank you for reminding me that everything always comes full circle.

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/849/

...And making me accept that chances are, destiny will win no matter what you choose.

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/863/

Whether those choices were made when I was too young to know...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/884/

...Or a choice to believe in something that I should have outgrown...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/902/

...Or someone.

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/924

I wanted to thank you for this as well...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/934/

Torturing as it may have been...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/941/

The insanity of the inebriation of emotions...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/946/

...Made my year quite interesting...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/951/

And besides pain is part of the process. It reminded me that I can actually feel.

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/961/

...But of course, all things must end. Good, bad, wrong, or otherwise. And as far as endings went this one kind of went through the seven stages of grief. Though not in order... It started with Anger...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/972/

Then it went through Denial...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/976/

...Depression...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/977/

...And more Depression...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/998/

...Then it went through Acceptance...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/1003/

...Which should have been the end, but it went to Bargaining...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/1006/

...and from there it just dragged on...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/1052

...And simmered...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/1018/

...And it opened up my Pandora's Box...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/1017/

...Of things that should have been locked away...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/1012/

...And secrets that should have been kept hidden...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/1141/

But thank you, still, because though I regret it now... At one point it was what I wanted.

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/1042/

I may have lost. But at least I played the game.

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/1041/
http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/1063/

Thank you, too, for making me realize that history does repeat itself...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/1026/
http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/1039/

...It makes me hopeful that next time it decides to repeat, it would be the good type of history.

The kind that takes a decade to forget...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/1040/

But I hope that when that part of history repeats itself, I won't have to forget. I'd hate to be haunted again.

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/1156/

Thank you for giving me time for myself...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/1037/

...For allowing me to remember that some of the things I used to love the most are still here, I just haven't been paying any attention...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/1027/High

...And for finally letting me live the life that I want to live.

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/1033/

It has been a tumultuously interesting year... At times it just made me want to scream "Do over!"...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/1090/

...Especially after realizing that there's nothing left...

Mostly because there was nothing there to begin with.

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/1116/

But despite that like I said... There's always a sliver of hope.

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/1114/
http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/1142/

Hindsight being 20/20, there are a lot of things that I would have done differently...

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/1178/

...But given the chance, I'd probably do it all the same...

Because this year was worth it. All emotions included... I can safely say that I lived.

As Always,
D.


P.S.: Tell 2010, to bring it's A-Game. You're going to be hard to follow.

Danabelle in PostSecret PostChristmas Shorts

Sooo...

Multiply is back!

Finally.

I was so set on blogging yesterday... Oh wellsss.

Here I is now!

...And there's nothing you can do about it. LOL.

----------------------------------------------------------------------

I still cry sometimes... Not because I still love you. But because I think I still love the idea of us.

----------------------------------------------------------------------

So, I know it's not Make-up Monday, but this really can't wait 'til next week.

I mean really.

Lookie!

Freebie!

I so love this! Grace and I tried on Boxing Day and it was hella awesome. No pictures though. Tsk. I forgets, I'm sorry.

Yummy yummy earth blush! Mmmm...

This I so totally love!!! I've been using this as an eyeshadow and blush eversince I got it. Totally lovelovelovelove. :) (And it's on sale. Go git it.)

Finally! See, everytime I order brushes for myself, they end up getting bought. But yayyy! This one's mine na. Hihi.

Yayyy! Isn't this new packaging so absolutely fetch?

The Bollywood Collection <3

The loot.

Oyayyy!

And alas. I am broke. LOL.


----------------------------------------------------------------------

Aquarium.

----------------------------------------------------------------------

Oooh yesterday...

Some Guy: Hi. I got your number in Friendster. I'm from Saudi Arabia.
D: Yes, and you need a photoshoot?
Some Guy: Photoshoot for what? I'm coming to UAE tomorrow, maybe we can meet.
D: Yeah, ok. See, I'm a photographer. Now I put my number on the site so potential clients can call me. I didn't put it on there for horny men. Thank you. Bye.

Bananyahahaha. True story.

----------------------------------------------------------------------

Yesterday, a song got to me. Songs always get to me. I wonder if they get to you...

----------------------------------------------------------------------

Yesterday, a friend and I were talking about love (As girls normally do). And I forget what my point was (As I normally do...?)

Errr...

Oh yeah, we were talking about getting hurt and how important that is, because see a guy who can hurt you is ultimately what you want... A guy who can, but won't.

Y'know?

----------------------------------------------------------------------

I fear that I will never find the one that I'm destined to be with. I'm starting to doubt his existence.

----------------------------------------------------------------------

Sooo... Christmas! How was all y'all's?

Christmas Eve, we...

...went to church.

Didn't get to take any pictures there though...

After church, we had dinner at Mercato, but first...

Mami wanted to take pictures in front of the Mercato tree. LOL.

Bella Donna... Not me. The Restaurant is called Bella Donna. But ok me, too, if you insist.

Light Fountain... Mahal ang water, eh.

Christmas Eve Pampam. LOL.

Yayyy!

----------------------------------------------------------------------

I wish I didn't know you. ...Everything's just tainted now.

My fault, yes.

But still.

----------------------------------------------------------------------

Christmas Day we...

...went to church and had brunch at Central Perk.

Tantananantantanananan... Clapclapclap.

(That's my sad attempt at typing out F.R.I.E.N.D.S.' intro thingyblahblah)

Thanks for the coupon, Teatah. :)

Pretty Fern.

Not so pretty Christmas Tree

Yummy.

I actually ordered smoked salmon... But they gave me smoked turkey... Which would have been a travesty, if it didn't taste so yummy.

Mmmm...

Yummersss.

After brunch, we did some groceries for Boxing Day Eve, and proceeded onto the Davises for dinner.

Mrs. Davis

Their kitchen is hella huge!

Nommynommy Turkey.

Bunso. Kulet. He's funny.

After dinner...

The kids danced...

...and the adults played Twister.



Parang baliktad, non?

Haha.

----------------------------------------------------------------------

I'm generally happy. I just get sad sometimes. I am human. What do you want from me?

----------------------------------------------------------------------

Christmas Day Eve, I...

...prepped the stuff for Boxing Day Eve...

I really wasn't expecting to host a lunch or dinner this year, because I don't have an oven.

But you know what they say... Once a host, always a host.

Errr... Something like that.

Chickenssss. (Madami eh, so plural)

Coffee Gulamansss.

This was fun... :)

I can't believe I didn't think of doing this before.

Aren't they just so festive? Hihi.

----------------------------------------------------------------------

I just realized that I lost poetry when I lost you.

...The funny thing is, both were never really mine.

----------------------------------------------------------------------

Boxing Day Eve, I...

...cooked.

And we...

...had fun. (Group photo by Monsieur Marc Guittap)

----------------------------------------------------------------------

I spent an entire year writing to and about you. I did some pretty great writing, too.

...I feel I wasted my talent on you.

----------------------------------------------------------------------

Sigh... And just like that Christmas is over. Well, there's still Three Kings Day, but you know what I mean...

I wish we could just keep Christmas decorations up all year.

And then just change the colors like every month...

I should probably marry Santa Claus. LOL. Or some guy who owns a Christmas Decoration Company.

----------------------------------------------------------------------

I'm submissive. And I don't think there's anything wrong with that.

----------------------------------------------------------------------

PostSecret!!!

i-Date na kasi... Haha.

I'm sorry I stopped loving you.

----------------------------------------------------------------------

I wish some guy would fall in love with my words and my pictures...

...Just like I fell in love with you two years ago.

----------------------------------------------------------------------

2009 is almost over... :)

Oyayyy!

Kisslovekisslove!

Sooo... Yes... Nagka-Multiply din.

Watching Eddie Izzard videos on YouTube for like the billionth time... Bananyahahaha.

So bagal the ampfness. Grrr.

Dear 20/20,

I hate that I associate you with a lot of the great songs that I listen to. I wish I never felt the way that I did knowing that this is where we would be now. But of course, the heart wants what it wants and I doubt that I could have done anything to change that even if I could go back in time.

Of course, it wasn't like I didn't try to fight it off. I did. ...But I was fighting a battle that I couldn't win. What's worse is that it honestly wasn't worth the fight. I'm sorry if that sounds vindictive or bitter, it isn't. It's just... True is what is.

But then there really are times when there's this definitive need to feed my monster pride... And it just makes me want to shake you and make you realize my worth because you don't seem to know.

I hate that I have to remember you with songs that I love, just because at one point I loved you just as much. I hate that I had to fight and that I had to lose, because everything that has passed and everything that lead up to this point really wasn't worth it. ...But you know what is?

...I am.

I was worth it. And I hate that you don't realize that I still am.


As Always,
D.

Boiling beef, roasting chestnuts, and seasoning chicken to Cary Brothers and Joshua Radin. I so <3 them.

Although it's been said, many times, many ways...

Merry Christmas!

Danabelle in Red Italic Times New Roman Secret Shorts

So that title's a mouthful. Hahaha.

It's been a while, huh?

How've y'all been?

I've kinda been busy. :-/

...As always.

---------------------------------------

Maybe it's all for the best...

---------------------------------------

PostSecret!!!





---------------------------------------

When this all started? Did you think that we'd be here now?

---------------------------------------

Sooo... Two weeks ago, we did this:

(Photos by Monsieur Eric Ramirez)

Fun! :) I think we had the largest crowd this year... There were people sitting on the aisles! Hihihi.

I love singing in the choir... There's just so much harmony literally and metaphorically. :)

---------------------------------------

It still stings a little bit. Sometimes.

---------------------------------------

Well, what do you know? It does rain in the desert.

How about this weather, huh? I'm totally loving it. I wish it would rain a lot more, but then again, this country's sewage system isn't so great that if it rains for a day, there's water everywhere for about a week.

Oh but how I love rain... :)

I was born on a stormy day, have I told y'all that?

Yeah...

---------------------------------------

I'm passive-aggressive. I should change, but I don't know how.

---------------------------------------

My momma got me this:


Ain't it pretty? :) Doesn't have any money in it, but at least it's pretty. Hahaha.

---------------------------------------

There's much to be said about it, but I'd rather not be the one to say it...

---------------------------------------

The other day, a friend and I were discussing money matters. Actually, we were talking about the ever taboo subject of how much one makes. LOL. She asked how much I used to make at my old job and since we're really good friends, I told her, afterwhich we both agreed on the fact that it was a figure that was a little hard to turn your back on.

There are times, when I'm tempted to go back to a 9-to-5 and just so I can go back to affording stuff that I don't need.

But honestly, despite the fact that I'm hella poor. I'm really happy. Because now, I really get to depend on God's grace every single day.

That and I get to do this:

It's all good. :)

---------------------------------------

I don't understand it... I don't know what it is. I just know what it's not.

---------------------------------------

Today, is supposed to be Make-up Monday, I know... But this is all I got for you girls. And it's not even finished. LOL.


I'm supposed to put gold embellishments on them, but I'm busy with other stuff, and I'm teerrrmmaadd pa. Haha. Oh and it doesn't show well on the picturegraph, but those are sparkling like cuhrayzay.

---------------------------------------

I hope you don't think you're special, just because I write about you.

---------------------------------------

Sooo, aside from catching up on my reading, watching, listening, and planning for school, I've been doing this:


DCOs are almost ready for release on January. :)

Danabelle's Closet Originals. Catch up on the acronyms will you?

Yeppers! I'm releasing my own line of closet monsters, which I'm hoping will make my Mamu proud.

:) Hihihi.

I'm infinitely psyched, I gotta say.

---------------------------------------

I also hope  that you don't think I'm angry or vindictive...

I'm not.

Like I said, I just know what it's not. I don't know what it is.

---------------------------------------

Oooh lookie!

Yummy Red Nerd Glasses!

Aren't they just so fresh?

Well, Frosty seems to like them. :D

So does Santa. (BTW, Santa, you look fabulous! ...Now about that gift that I've been asking for... No, I'm not kissing your butt, I'm just saying you really do look great in those glasses.)

Rudolph doesn't like 'em so much.

But our tree totally does!

Yeah, see I know life isn't always that great...

In fact, sometimes, it's absolutely terrible.

But having nerdy funky glasses usually helps.

At least I think so.

But then again, I'm a little insane, so maybe you shouldn't listen to me.

---------------------------------------

I really don't want to end up being a cynic... But I'm afraid I'm headed that way.

---------------------------------------

By the by, my HD is on the fritz again. Grrr. I think it's just the power cable this time.

But still... Grrr.

My 2009 crop post (+portfolio updates) would just have to wait til I get a new cable.

Woe, I say. Woe.

---------------------------------------

And yes, of course, I only have myself to blame for all of this. I know that.

---------------------------------------

Happy Holidays, y'all!