FEED UP daw. Bwrhrhrhr.

Shallow Bitch

D: May I bitch for a few minutes?
K: Sure.
D: *Bitchbitchbitchbitch... stops for a moment and realizes: Ok this sounds absolutely shallow now that I've typed it.

2010 BIRTHDAY WISHLIST

Hrhrhr.

1.
Everyday Minerals - On The Reef, Coral Collection

2.
Glee - The Complete First Season DVD

3. <Insert Teh Alpaca's Picture Here>
Boyfran. Hrhrhr.

Yun lang. Iksi na wishlist ko this year, I swear. Hrhrhr.

And if I get #3, I don't think gugustuhin ko pa ang 1 & 2. Hrhrhr.

Of going around what comes around

Last week, I was sitting outside a café that overlooked the sea. It was around 40 degrees Celsius, but I didn't mind; the taste of coffee on my lips and the scent of cigarettes blended perfectly with the hot Middle Eastern Summer air. As I looked on to the beautiful sunset, I could see a light post in the distance. And perched on top are the silhouettes of two black birds. As beautiful and as poignant as all of that was, I couldn't help but feel taunted. I'm twenty-five years old turning twenty-six and it dawned on me that I'm going through a quarter-life crisis. My last relationship ended on a terrible note seven years ago and since then I haven't been in a serious relationship. I'm still in the process of figuring out why. Whether I've just been scared to; whether I've been a victim of circumstance, with the circumstance being that there just aren't any good available men in my area; whether I'm just being picky; or whether I've just been scarred for life by the ex.

I know that thirty-somethings would probably want to slap me silly right now, but seriously, I am starting to feel really antsy and I know there are some women out there who are just not the marrying kind, unfortunately, I am not one of those women. I look forward not only to the day that I have my fantasy wedding, but to the actual life that I will be living with my husband and 2.5 kids. Yes, I actually look forward to living in the suburbs, driving an SUV, baking an enormous amount of goodies, and knitting stuff or whatever it is that housewives do nowadays. Don't get me wrong, it's not that I'm really scared of ending up alone, I still believe that there is someone for everyone, it just gets a little bit frustrating and terrifying... And sometimes, it just makes me want to close my eyes and scream, "Where is he?!?!" and "Why isn't he here, yet?!?!". Dramatic, yes I know.

The other night, I was minding my own business, or actually I was minding everybody's business on Facebook, I love how this site actually allows us to see anything and everything that's going on in your social circle at the click of a button. Anyway, I was uhmm ... "catching up" on my reading, when lo and behold, a message appears on my computer screen. The message was from none other than the ex fiance, who may have just scarred me for life. A couple of years ago, I would have typed expletives and screamed incomprehensible curses at him, of course I'm exaggerating, in reality a couple of years ago, I would have just ignored him and pretended that he was six-feet-under, but that night it actually felt ok for us to finally just talk to each other like adults or whatever it is you call 20-somethings nowadays.

After the usual how-are-yous and how've-you-beens, I started to sense a certain something, the something being a negative vibe that was so strong I could actually feel it through my computer screen. So I asked him how he really was and he said he was feeling absolutely terrible and utterly miserable, because he was going through a very bad break-up. Now, see, that part I knew. I mean he hasn't exactly been the most private person on Facebook, as a matter of fact he has been the epitome of someone who wears their heart on their errr status updates.

He proceeded to tell me about his break-up, he said he's been trying to get over it, but that the reason that it was so hard for him to move on was that because he gave the girl 101% and  left nothing for himself. Talk about melodrama, the boy actually succeeded in dethroning me as the drama queen. However, it was his next sentence that caught my attention. He said that the two of them had planned to get married, and that they already planned everything from a to z, but just a month after he proposed, the girl ended their relationship. That sounded very familiar like it happened seven years ago, with him proposing, and us planning, and him not being able to stand up to his parents, leaving me hanging.

I wanted to point and laugh at him, saying "Haha! Serves you right!". But as mean as I may appear to be, I couldn't. I felt bad for him. So I just spewed out a few encouraging words and some empowering statements for good measure and sent him on his way. I think it's funny how everything in my world eventually comes full circle. Yesterday, a friend of mine told me "Love has no karma.", she said, "Think about it, did we ever deserve all the bad things that were done to us? No. We never did anything wrong to deserve the bad relationships. Hence, love has no karma.", she may have a point, but the thing is I don't really believe in karma. I believe that things happen, because they do... And if they happen to come full circle, then we say, "Thank you, World. As always, your irony has managed to amuse us!".

So, I guess, I shall succumb to thinking that the reason I am still single is not because I've been scared, or that I've been a victim of circumstance, or that I'm being picky, not even because the ex has scarred me for life, but because of how ironic the world tends to be. And despite the irony or hopefully because of it, and although, I may not believe in karma, I am hoping that just how the ex got what he gave, I too will one day get back the love that I gave.

I just hope that day comes soon, otherwise, the next time I see those two black birds canoodling on a light post at sunset, I'm picking up a rock.

Sooo... I dreamt that we were finally going on that date. ...Which I was totally gonna be late for but I couldn't call to tell you dahil wala akong load. LOL.

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It's funny how my world always ends up going full circle.

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"Well that's the funny thing about reputations; Everyone thinks I'm the big heartbreaker, but the fact of the matter is... You broke mine first."

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Dear JR,

Haha. Look at me, writing to you and everything. ...And at 4am at that.

How've you been? I do hope that all is well. I've been busy as usual. The days are passing by everso swiftly and I can't seem to keep up.

Why can't we just be in the same place at the same time, like, bump into each other accidentally... Like, everyday or something or other. I say that now, but I know that if that ever did happen, I wouldn't know what to do or say, anyway... So I guess this is for the best.

...I guess.

You know how when you feel like you know something so well for so long and yet when someone says it to you, it surprises you, like it's the first time you're hearing it. It's weird, I know that I've accepted the fact that I'm not exactly the nicest person in the world, but when someone actually calls me a bitch to my face, the voice in my head says, "What? Me? Really?".

By the way, I know I should probably be angry, but honestly, I kind of feel sorry for the poor thing. And I probably have every right to discredit or demean her, but all I want to do right now is help her. It must be tough having such low self-esteem. Not that I don't have self-esteem issues myself, but, oh boy, the girl's got some serious issues. Seriously.

Oh and I could defend myself... But I don't think there's a need to. ...Res ipsa loquitor.

People surprise you. But I sometimes wish they wouldn't surprise you so much. ...I think I'm fairly easy to talk to. I accept things as they are and don't really question. I just wish that some people could just get their stuff together before they actually talk to me. I'm just as clueless or possibly even more.

What is "fair"? And who gets to decide that? I'm not sure it exists. And if it did, I'm sure that many people would be seriously alarmed and disappointed at how their idea of "fair" doesn't actually equate to the real meaning of it.

I feel like a valley is fast approaching. ...Constricted is such a fabulous word. How I ever got myself into this situation again is mindboggling. ...And I suppose this is the reason why I'm writing to you. Because, when I write, I don't have to worry about following the rules, or offending someone, or whether you agree with me or not. I don't even have to worry if you understand me... Because I know you do.


As Always,
D.

Tee Em Frikken Aye.

...Sooo.

Ang sakit ng puson ko.

...Dalaga na ako.

Yun lang. Bow.

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Dear N,

I wish we left things on better terms. I stumbled upon the letters I wrote to you... And there was this one letter that I wish was the last one, unfortunately there were many more after that. There are so many memories that I wish I could just erase.

I wish I didn't get to see that side of you that I've grown to dislike. By disliking that part of you, I ended up subconsciously keeping you in that place where I keep things that I don't like. Goodness and now I even refer to you as a "thing".

I wish I could have just realized then what I know now. But things have a certain process that they have to go through, I guess.

I'm starting forget you. The only memory that's left are my scribbled notes... I sometimes feel like it would be so much better to wipe the slate clean and just forget everything for good.

...But I'm a sentimental soul. And I like to torture myself with the ghosts of my past.

How are you? I'm happy, by the way, if you care to know. Somehow regretful how things were blown out of proportion resulting in what we call now. But, my life in general, is pretty great. And whether it's 'despite' or 'because of' the fact that you're not around, I don't think we need to know.

...I just wish I left before it went bad.


As Always,
D.

Tumblrlurrrve: We're both fiction. You're too good to be true. ...And I don't exist for you.

Kung sinoman ang madadaan ng Daiso, pwedeng bilan nyo ko ng eyelash glue, yung transparent. AED7. Advanced birthday gift. Belated Valentines. Salamat sa patuloy n'yong pagmamahal sa'kin. Nyahahaha.

Script

D: Benta natin yung script ng D's Beach don!
Friend: Sige. Eh pero, pang-jologs don, ha...
D: Yeah, ehhh jologs naman ang D's Beach, parang The OC meets Doogie. LOL.
Friend: Eh English naman ang The OC. Baka super English naman yang script mo.
D: Hindi ah... Taglish. 'Sides, kasama si *Somebody'sNameNaDiPwedeTypeDito* sa script, paano naman mage-English yun?!?!
Friend: Blahahaha.

LMAO. We're so bad.

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Moohahaha.

'Cause I still don't want to reblog in Tumblr...

(Click peekchur for hella awesome bananyahahaha.)

I frikken love Rizza Cabrera...

Did you know that the chocolate chip cookie was made because a housewife didn't feel like melting the chocolate and thought it would probably melt when she put them in the oven anyway?

& every love song before you came along was always about someone else... <3

Lunch COMBOrsations

...I just remembered this from last weekend and it made me laugh.

Yes, mag-isa akong tumatawa at three in the morning.

...I'm insane, what do you want from me?

D: *Smiling and agreeing with people at the table* ...Ah really?
V: ...Hindi mo naiintindihan no?
D: Hindi eh. Nyahahaha. Why do you know me so well? I love you.

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V: ...Tapos yung dugo papatuluin dun sa bigas tas isasama sa sabaw. Ang sarap non! Ayos din 'tong usapan natin no? Habang kumakain. Hahaha.

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J: Kumpleto ka pala ng Scrubs...
D: Shempre pa! I told you I heart Zach Braff.
M: Sino yun?
D: Yun oh (pointing to the TV). I love him. He's this awesome actor, writer, and director and...
M: Uhm-hmm... Eyeehhhnn ka na naman sa mga combo mo.
D: Blahahaha. I love you talaga. You know me so well.

I met my inaanakitteh today. Soooo cuuute!!! And so well behaved. :) Hihihi. I so want a kitteh of my own.

Dear Nothing,

I know I've resolved to just let things go as they come... And I have succeeded I think, for the most part.

And there are many many things that I've chosen to just overlook. Things that I've chosen to just let pass... But see there's this one thing that I can't seem to get off my mind.

...And it's you.

I'm over-romanticizing this, I know. But at least, I know the difference now, between making a big deal out of nothing and downplaying a bigdeal into nothing.

And you, well, you're my nothing. ...And you can take that in any way that you like. But know this, nothing as you may be, I love you. In all your nothingness, I do.


As Always,
D.

Oh wow. Just how pretentious can you get?!?! I mean, really...

My CTS Kiddie Students had their last session today. I'll miss those kulitskipies. Hihi.

Downloading Cashback. Hella excited. Gaaahhh.

Stuff my friends and I talked about over the past few days...

...That I don't want to forget, so I'm putting it on here.

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Friend: Just because a film is subtitled, doesn't make it an art film.

LOL. I so totally love her. Her statements give me absolument joy.

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D: Yeah... That's what happened.
Friend: Hahaha. Biruin mo yon, kakagaya n'ya sa'yo, nangyari yun.

Nyahahaha.

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Friend: Humor measures a person's level of intellect.

I so fabulously agree.

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Friend relaying what another friend said: "Oh shet. It's a politics."

Bahahaha. Demmet. Tawang tawa ako dito.

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*Me singing a French song

Friend: Naiintindihan mo ba?
D: Hindi eh. Nyahahaha. De... Parang minsan naiintindihan ko yung ibang words tas pinagdidikit-dikit ko na lang.
Friend: Ah. So anong ibig sabihin nyan
D: Ahmm...
Friend: Oh I didn't mean to put you on the spot...

Nyahahaha.

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Friend: (Playfully okraying another friend) Ang ganda mo talaga... Anong tawag dun sa horse na maitim? Black Beauty. Ganon ka.
Other Friend: Ah ganon.
Friend: Oo tas si _______, horse lang talaga.

Nyahahaha. Vad.

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D: Look! *copy pastes a picture of alpacas* Ang cute no??? I want one!
Friend: Ay ang cute nga.
D: By the by, yan na tawag natin sa kanya. Alpaca. Bagay diba? LOL.

Ticky tacky hummmm...

So much for being awake...

...I'd rather dream in my sleep.

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An Orencillo-Gutierrez Collaboration.

A surrealist art exhibit.

Get ready to dream.

Soon.

Please don't judge me -- CSS: Baby baby baby oh...

Ang dark pala ng plum sa fingernails. Parang black na eh.

Oh happy day!

OMG. Buko Pandan hopia is teh best thing ever. I doth believe that it is the key to world peace.

I just realized that the planner that I got only has enough pages to last until May. Grrr. SOMEONE HELP ME.

Alam mo yung iinitin mo sa microwave diba? Tapos umuusok na, pati plato mainit na... Tapos ok na. Sobrang sarap na...

Gaaahhh... I almost forgot about my appointment tomorrow. I seerussly needsss a diary.

A picture is worth a thousand words... Kaya wag mo na lagyan ng description. Nasisira eh.

Why comessss ang boring na pa-alwayslagi ng Multiply?

Barbie Pink nails!!! Blahahaha. Para akong naoverdose ng Peptobismol. LMAO.

Danabelle in Wobbly Wednesday Shorts

...I haven't done this in a long time... So forgive me if it's a little wobbly.

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I finally fixed my room today. After a billion years.

I know I'll probably just mess it up after a few days, but for now, it is fixed.

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I was reading old blog posts earlier today and I couldn't help, but laugh at the craziness. I had a blog post that had 245 comments... Kamusta naman yun? LOL. I miss the commentchat days. Those were fun.

Everybody's just busy now.

...And probably on Facebook or Twitter or Tumblr.

I doth think that Multiply is dead.

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See, earlier this year, I resolved to let the little things go... And while that is good practice, I've actually run out of things to write about. Because when you start to let the little things go, eventually, some of the big things start to fall under the classification of little things too... So in actuality what I'm really doing is letting everything go.

Look at me growing up and stuff.

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PostSecret.

<3

I met you a long time ago. I left, but I came back for you. You never knew any of this.

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So what's been going on?

I've been pretty busy with stuff...

LOL.

I'm a book away from the final unit at NYIP. Oyayyy. :) Lapit na ko graduate. Hihihi.

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Got these about a week ago...

What? They were on SALE.

I'm only human.

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Last Saturday was hella busy to say the least. I had five students.

It was also Nabila's, one of my CTS (Comprehensive Training Session - 16 Hours) Students, last day with me...

At the end of the session...

N: Uhmm... I wanted to ask you... What else is there in photography?
D: Uh? What do you mean?
N: What other courses can I take with you?
D: Ohhh... Hahaha. Well, I've already taught you everything I know.
N: It's just that I was looking forward to our sessions every Monday and Saturday and I'm kinda sad now that it's the last.
D: Awww... Me, too.

She is such a sweetheart and I'll truly miss seeing her every week.

We went over to Jumeira open beach to do her final session on strobing... And this is what she came up with.

I'm super proud of the progress that she's made. Really awesome.

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Last Monday...

We had to put the car in the garage... So we took the bus to getsss it.

Parang first time lang eh. Excited magbus. Hahaha.

We had lunch at Second Cup. They had this hella cheaps offer of sandwich with a latté. LOL.

Got this at Missha. <3 Paubos na kasi yung BB Cream ko from Skinfood.

They gave me free samples. I <3 free samples.

Tried it while waiting in the car...

Tas nabore ako sa kotse, so pumampam ako. LOL.

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Today...

Peptobismol-ish nails. LOL.

Pretty Polkadotty Nails...

Oh and these came from Ella. :) Hihihi. Well technically they came from E.L.F., but they're from my pretty sweetie Ellapie. :)

Vevee, see! Bahahaha. OMG. Ang laki nya talaga.

I can't wait to try this out.

This I tried na... It's hella awesome!!!

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So...

I guess we're up to date... Sort of. There's been a lot going on in between. And I guess, I've just been to busy living my life that I forgot to write about it.

Haha.

Lovelovelovelovelove!

To blog or not to blog...

OMG. What in the world is wrong with you? GET A CLUE, pwede?

Ito kasi ang problema pag natututo mag-edit ng picture... Di mo na malaman kung anong effect ang gagamitin sa sobrang daming choices, di mo alam kung super kukulayan mo para errr makulay, kung id-desaturate para dreamy, kung ib-black & white para classic, or kung ib-bleach para awesome... Bussett. Nyahahaha.

Dear Hair,

Seriously, what is wrong with you?

I mean... First, you led me to believe that you are straight-slash-wavy, only to find out 23 years later, that you're actually curly. And you're not just curly curly. You're hella curly. Not that I'm complaining I actually like you... I do.

But see, what's really bothering me, and what I wrote to you about right now is to ask you whether you have an armor of some sort... Because you seem to resist hair color thingymabooboos. What is up with that???

Last year, I tried to color you a pretty Aubergine... But you came out looking like errr, like my original color. Today, I tried to color you a pretty dark blonde... And you came out looking like chocolate errr like my original color. ...Which is actually a pretty color I must say... I'm not complaining. It's just that...

I thought you'd be lighter... And I went ahead and bleached my eyebrows to match you.

I now have caramel colored brows and you're still chocolate brown.



I am now a walking eclair.

Woe is me.


As Always,
D.

Multi-Colored Neon Nails are the Yummiest! :D

"But she's touching his chest now. He takes off her dress now. Let me go... 'Cause I just can't look, it's killing me and taking control..."

"You can never find the right person if you can’t let go of the wrong one. But the moment you feel like letting go, remember why you held on so long in the first place. And sometimes, you just have to forget what you want and remember what you deserve."

Sana 28 na. :D

I miss baking. I needsss a working oven. Grrr.

Dear P. Lea Sedontre Adme,

So I felt like it was time to admit that there's something terribly wrong.

...I can't write. I know I said I'd let the little things go. ...Along with the big things. But I'm sure that the fact that I can't write is neither here nor there, so I am not just gonna let this go, I am going to do the exact opposite of letting go. That is I'm going to take this issue-thing-whatever and I'm going to keep it for as long as humanly possible. Yeah that's right I'm not gonna let it go I'm gonna keep it like a beekeeper keeps bees and I'm gonna steal honey from it or wait that was Eddie Izzard's bit, yeah ok, whatever, I'm just going to overdramatize this and make the issue-thing-whatever bigger than how it really is and then I'll write in run-on sentences, whilst getting sidetracked here and there, which is how I get when I overdramatize and make an issue-thing-whatever bigger than how it really is, when I really should have just let it go.

If I was actually saying this out loud, right around here is where I take a long needed deep breath after having talked really really really fast with no pauses that I'd actually have appeared a little blue right by the end of my litany of sorts and then I'll proceed on to say that the worst part about me not being able to write is that I know that I want to, like you know you'd probably want to stop reading by now, 'cause this is going to take a while. Or like you know that the sky is blue except in the UAE where the sky is actually beige, which is weird. Or like you know how the pyramids are located in Cairo, and seriously, if you didn't know that, I really don't know you, 'cause dude, I knew that when I was seven years old. So I mean, c'mon are you seriously going to let seven-year-old Danabelle kick your butt at History errr Geography ... Or whatever subject it is that would require you to study where the pyramids were.

So yes... Sadly, I believe I have lost my sauce. If you've known me for more than two seconds, you would know that "sauce" is what I like to call my writing mojo. The term was derived from being "sauced-up" or in simple terms "drunk out of your wits". Not that I drink when I write, it's just that most of what I write may seem like I was probably inebriated when I wrote them, which is not to say that it's a bad thing. It's a great thing. I mean, Edgar Allan Poe was an amazing writer with a lot of sauce, but he was literally and actually drunk out of his wits. Or Lewis Caroll who I always thought was an old lady for some reason. Don't ask me why.

I feel that I should try writing poetry again. But I don't want to be absurdly pretentious. It would just seem too awkward. I can actually hear the crickets chirping. Seriously, though, I would give the "I'm busy" thing a whirl, but I think I've really done all I can do with that. Besides, who am I kidding, I'm really not that busy. I mean, sure, all my days are full until March, but ... Yeah yeah, I'll drop it already.

Oh well... Goshdarnit, I can't even wrap up a simple letter like I used to. You know, like repeating whatever I started with so that it would go full-circle and fit into that whole circular writing pattern thing that I do... What? You mean, I seriously haven't done it in so long that you can't remember how it went.

Tsk.

There's something terribly wrong. I can't write. ...And I just can't let it go.


As Always,
D.

"There is no time I feel more alive than when my heart is breaking."

The 10000 Kelvin Wheel

Everything goes full circle.

...So do not fret when you're down, 'cause there's nowhere else to go, but up.

<3

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The Obligatory Valentine Post for 2010

B: May boyfriend ka na?
D: Wala.
B: Baket?
D: I'm not that desperate, eh.

LOL. So, there it is. The truth comes out. What? It's 2010, it's about time that I start owning up to whatever needs to be owned up and it's about time for me to start taking responsibility for my faults.

If you've known me for more than six months, you've probably heard me complain about the lack of men in the community.

That's not entirely true.

You see, marami namang lalake, eh. ...Ayoko lang sa kanila.

Nyahahaha.

What? Eh sa wala pa akong nakikilalang lalakeng maayos ayos (Actually, merong isa, pero malayo naman s'ya... Tsaka teka hindi tungkol sa kanya tong blog na 'to. Blahahaha.)... Mapili na kung mapili. Pihikan na kung pihikan. Single na kung single. Ano naman ang dapat kong gawin? Pumatol sa kung kani-kaninong lalake sa tabi tabi? Ayokong pumulot ng bato at ipukpuk sa ulo ko just so when I get asked if I have a boyfriend, I can say yes.

Thanks, but I actually have better things to do.

Oh and another thing, para sa mga itch na itch na sabihan ako that with my girth, looks, and age, I probably should not be so choosy... Tipong, "Ganyan ka nga, mapili ka pa..."

Ito lang ang masasabi ko, your definition of beauty can be bought at a street corner. What I have and what I am can't be paid for.

If what that meant didn't sink in, gan'to na lang... "Ganto na nga ako eh... Hindi pa ako pipili?"

Hahaha.

Kisses and all things sweet! <3 Happy Valentines, y'all!

Ano daw?

Baket ba kasi ang hirap pumili ng picture para sa Prajek Trisikspayb. Dernet.

Hella weird...

Some Guy's First Message On Facebook:

"Hi Babe."

Me:

*In thought* Errr... Hi?

Some Guy's Second Message on Facebook:

"Beb, are you mad at me ba?"

Me:

*Actual Message* "Ha? Uhhh... I don't think I know you well enough to be mad at you."

iHungry. iTasteBudsNotWorking. iBussett.

Joy's Test Shots

Click pictures for bigsss, yeah?

Cool Chicks

D: Yeah, my Weeds is still DLing.
Friend: I see.
D: Oh but my Bon Jovi Discography came in. Moohahaha. What? ...You got your Aegis, I have my Bon Jovi. LMAO. 'Cause we're cool chicks is what we are. Nyahahaha.
Friend: Penge ako Bon Jovi!

Nyahahaha. We're so darn cool is what we are.

GIRLS!!! The Kikay Konference for this Friday is postponed until further notice. Sorry about this. Kisses!

Oh but you see, darling, you can take it... But you can't think it.

Hey Feb. :) What's kickin'?

Yehey... Tinuruan ako ni Pepey magnakaw. Isa na akong criminal. Nyahahaha.

"If you're all alone, when the pretty birds have flown..." -- Nyahahaha. Watched Mamma Mia again. Ang saya saya.

Ella in Desertland

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Oyayyy!!!

What? Si Tim Burton lang ba ang pwede mag-trip? Kami din ba. Di pwedeng hindi.

Thank you, Ellaheart. :) Thank you, James.

Naglalaway na ako sa super sinful na hipon. Hahaha.

Mostly Cloudy! Oyayyy! :) Thank you, Lord. :D

Sooo... Ang tahimik ng interwebs today. But whyyysss???

Pinaiyak ako ng Mamma Mia. Naman eh. Hahaha. Le sigh. Iyakin lang talaga siguro ako. Pfsh.

Of writing, strength, and gymKnights...

D: ...I wish I could write like that... You know where people actually get to feel stuff...
M: Hey, super relate ako sayo noh!
D: Wahahaha. Yeah... Pero I haven't made people cry, yet. I mean it's a terrible thing to want... Pero you know, I want to evoke emotion...
M: You dont know that... Maybe there's that someone... Hmmm... I'm trying to recall if you made me cry already. Sobrang dami kasi, di ko na matandaan...
D: Awww... It's ok... The fact that you read, I'm more than thankful for
M: You know why you dont make people cry?
D: Why? ...Kasi i'm funny. Blahahaha.
M: ...Because most of the time if not all the time you appear strong and instead of making people cry you inspire them or make them feel that they're not alone
D: Wwww. Wow. Well that's a compliment. Thank you. Hihihi. It's totally wrong, but thank you. Hahaha. Im the weakest person i know. LOL.
M: Not exactly, there's some sort of strength in your weakness.
D: So you mean my confidence to show that i'm weak makes me appear strong.
M: Yes. The way you put a wall between you and the person who hurts you is Painful in itself pero, others would consider it as a strength
D: So but this strength thing is the problem though... It puts guys off kaya ako single, i fink. Blahahahaha. How do i turn it off??? Shall I pretend to be strong so that i'll appear weak? Moohahaha.
M: I have the same problem, I appear strong daw, kahit sumasakit na ang lungs at bangs ko. Wala ng nerve ang bangs ko pero masakit pa rin.
D: Wahahaha. Well. Yes you do seem to have everything together. But you know what i think the world's definition of strong is all wrong... We're just smart. People think we're strong, but really we're damsels in friggin' distress. Now where the heck is that knight in shining friggin' armor??!?!?!! Putek, antagal nya!
M: Hahahaha! Agree! I'm waiting for that knight too. I don't want a prince charming. I want a KNIGHT!
D: Yeah, Prince Charming's a wuss. Friggin' pretty boy ampf. now a knight. a knight's a man.
a ruggedly handsome sexy man. ...Who has a horse.
M: Grrrrr
D: ...And a sword!
M: Delicioso!
D: ...And metal clothes... Errr. Ok we can work on his fashion sense. Pero what matters is he's a man!
M: Korek.
D: Yun nga lang baka gym member sya in which case... Magkukulutan na lang kami.
M: Nyahahaha.

I so <3 Coraline!!! It's so Alice in Wonderland/Being John Malkovich. Hahaha.

Organizimizizing my schedule -- I'm doing it right. I fink.

I really truly need a diary... Like an appointment calendar type of thing. *Sabunots self*

Dear 123,

I just realized that I haven't been writing so much.

This month is going to end in about a week... And I've only written seven blogs, this included. The other two don't even count, because they were just pictures.

LOL.

Well... At least, I've been making photos. One a day (at least) even! That's more than I can say for 2009 where I didn't even want to go near my camera.

It's weird... But this doesn't feel weird. Haha. What I meant was that I usually feel like there's this void, when I don't write. Write something or anything. I mean if you've known me for a while, you'd know that I have mild hypergraphia...

Yes. Mild. That's what we're calling it now. Haha.

I don't know why this is how it is...

I just think it's weird how this doesn't feel weird.



LOL.


Oxymoronic as always,
D.

Sooo... I'm hella psyched for Project Saturday. :) Thank you, Marcmarc.

Singing: Spell my name, spell my name...

...If no one is around you, say "Baby, I love you", if you ain't running game...


It's a new color treatment thingymabooboo. Y'likes?

Here's the original color thingyblahblah:


Kissies, huggies, and all the goodstuff.

Loveheartloveheart.

War Wednesday

Please click peekchur for LOL.

Hayyy... Umaatikabong pilian na naman iteyyy.

RESEARCH -- I'm doing it extra right. Seeing as it's 3am and I'm still up doing it.

Ito na naman kami sa pagpili ng peekchur for Day 19... Ang herrafff.

Foodtrip 101: Masarap iulam ang Spam sa Cornflakes. Trust me.

To no one specific and everyone in general:

Hey. How've you been?

So... You don't fool me for one bit. I'm not entirely sure what you're on, but keep at it... The public is amused by your insanity... I say amused, but what I actually mean is that they're laughing their butts off whilst pointing at your general direction. ...Too mean? Pfsh. C'mon... It's almost 4am, you gotta know that I really don't mean any of this.

...Or maybe I do. Who knows? I mean, really?

So how about all this online account syncing, eh? It's pretty awesome is how it is... It just confuses me a little bit and I'm not sure now, whether I should Multiply, Tumblr, Twitter, or Facebook my thoughts... It just seems that whatever I do on whichever site gets synced, so I guess it probably doesn't matter...

...I just care too much, because I'm cuh-ray-zay.

Oh hey, thank you, btw. That was really nice what you did there a couple of weeks ago. And I don't know if you know... I would tell you to your face, but I'm a friggin' coward. See, I did it for the ratings... You were collateral damage. So, I'm sorry, thank you, and everything else in between, I guess.

Yeah, I know. That was really assinine... Water under the bridge over troubled waters. Haha. Lookie, I made a funny.

What are you doing right now? That's a stupid question. I bet you're in the comfort of your comfortable bed sleeping soundly and getting all the energy that you can get so you can have a super duper awesome day later, because I'm pretty sure that all your days are awesome, because you are awesome. Are you dreaming right now as you sleep? I wonder what your dreams are about... Just so you know, my dreams are of you. Ahaha.

...I'm kidding. Or maybe not. A lady would never really tell...

I miss you. I really truly do. We had some pretty fun times, you and I. I wonder if we'll ever get there again in the future... I hope we do. After all, stranger things have happened.


As Always,
D.


P.S.: F.Y.I., I'm infinitely psyched. <3 Yeah, truly, fully, and infinitely psyched. And so to you, I send love, hugs, kisses and all that other awesome stuff that candies and lollipops are made of. Shimshimshimmy! :)

I broke my nail. Oy vey. 3 months na namang pahabaan ito. Le sigh...

The day has come for "Inside Dana's Head" to bid farewell... It's been great.

Sooo... I finally got around to updating my Tumblr. About time, I've been on that thing since forever (Errr... July 2007?). Anyway, I'm posting Project 365 on there, and on Facebook, too. That way, I get to be embarassed on three different sites should I decide to flake on this project. How fun.

Holy guacamole, I was about ready to freak out 'cause I thought I broke the J on my keyboard... Nyahahaha. It's begging to be replaced, man.

...So what exactly is keeping me up at 1:40 in the middle of the night? Uploading pictures at http://danabelle.daportfolio.com Hehe. Just a temporary thing until my dotnet gets fixed. Lookie it! It's pretty. :)

Moving on to Unit 5... Wow. I'm like almost done. Hella psyched, I gotta say.

Sign in, sign out, sign in, sign out. Make up your mind, YM! ...Or actually, please stop having a mind of your own. It's getting a little annoying. ...Just a tad.

Tissue Letter

I was fixing up my room today when I came across this table napkin.

"

I've used up all of my writing space on the scrap paper that I've brought and I'm now resorting to writing on a table napkin. Talk about having issues. The need to write with nothing much to say... What do you call that? I want to write until I lose myself in my own words... Until the words lose all meaning and the syncopation of it is all that matters. Boom boom boom... Keeping up with the beat of whatever it is that you're supposed to keep up with during these times.

I lose, because I don't have rythm enough to even distinguish the beat. I can't even spell "rhythm" correctly the first time through.

Ah... Love. Ah... Nothing. I've lost my rhythm. I am Edgar Allan Poe in that I can't write when I'm not miserable, but when I am, I'm a genius.

I've lost my eloquence. Ever since you came, you've put a smile to my face... Given me a reason to just smile... But you've taken my eloquence. Now I can't even write properly. I'm writing on a table napkin hoping it'll get better.

But no...

You still make me smile.

...And I still can't write.


As Always,
D.

"

Funny thing, I'd forgotten that I wrote this and it was like I was reading it for the first time.

Funnier still, I've forgotten who I wrote it to...

At talagang tinapos namin ang Night At The Museum 2 kahit pahinto-hinto... Sinabi nang bumili na lang ng DVD. Tsk. Haha.

Panic

C: Everyone has someone these days
D: LOL. I don't have anyone, but i'm happy. It's all good
C: Good for you.
D: Being single is great, 'cause you get so much more time for yourself to do what you want...
C: True true. How old are you now?
D: 25, turning 26 in June. I should probably panic. Bwahahaha. But i'm done panicking. That's so 2009!

LOL.

Besides, I have a new theme song.

"And somehow I know that it will all turn out... And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out. ...And I promise you, kid, I'll give so much more than I get...

I just haven't met you yet."

...Just as I predicted. Moohahaha.

Isn't it great how people who don't know you actually take the time to reach out to you just to say something nice? :) I think it's pretty awesome.

I feel like I've accomplished something big... I'm mababaw, I know, but this is a really big deal for me. Thank you, Kisstian!

Danabelle in 2010's First Shorts

New Year!

Oyayyy!

How's 2010 treating y'all so far?

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New Year's Eve we went to church for the watch night service.

I gotta say that was such a blessed night.

After church, we had ...

I know the picture doesn't make it look so appetizing, but that thang was so darn yummy!

Extra, extra! R..ice? Haha.

What? We're ghetto... Ehhh-no naman ngayon? Haha. Sigh. It's almost time to pack up the Christmas plates.

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Oooh! Lookie! Mommy got me a Christmas present...

Di na mamatay ng bigla bigla ang phone ko! Weee!

Oh and one of my New Year's Resolutions is to be more responsible with the phone thing. Which means...

...Yes, I'll know where my phone is... I'll answer all y'all's calls... And... Sasagot na ako sa text kung may load. LOL.

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Oh and lookie! Lookie!!!

Checkered Readers. :) Oyayyy.

I'm a funky nerdy "secretary". Moohahaha.

Oh and I think they're bagay sa New Year's Polka Dot Nails ko. :D

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New Year's Day we went to church and then went over to Taro's Kitchen for lunch.

Mommy was hella psyched. LOL.

Kulet ng nanay ko. Goodness.

Nomnomnom...

Mommy & Uncle Jojo.

After lunch, we went over to Ghurair (pronounced as Grrr. LOL.)


We had coffee at Starbucks where it...

...rained like cray-zayyy!


...which was cool. Cause I love the rain. :D

<3

Check out that sky. Ain't it awesome?

Oh and we met this couple. I was taking pictures of the rain, and the guy was all like "take our picture, take our picture!". So I did. LOL.

On our way home we got into some traffic, as usual... I was hella bored... But thankfully, this sign was there to entertain the heck outta me.

FTW?!

May I interest you in a liver or a kidney perhaps?

Nyahahaha.

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Today, I put this thing together...

Yeah yeah... I promise... No makeup-buying in 2010... Goodness knows I have more than enough.

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Oooh! So I doth thinketh that ghetto photography is making a fabulous comeback in 2010...

The sun was shining through our kitchen window and I thought it would make a fabulous picture for Project 365...

I started with an orange. But since the light was coming in from just one side, it was a little too chiarascuro for my taste... So, I did this.

Moohahaha.

But then, my coffee cup caught my attention 'cause it's just so purdeee...

Ghetto Photograhy at its finest. Hahaha.

Workshop to be conducted soon.

LMAO.

Boohahaha.

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Sooo... I'm taking pictures again. Like pictures pictures. And actually enjoying it.

Last year, I was just in no mood. Everything just started to look bleh.

I think I just needed to rest. ...And kind of break away from the pack. I mean don't get me wrong, hanging out with other photographers has it's good side, but if y'all hang out too often, you kind of lose your identity and your perspectives look horribly the same... Which is not so bad, but it's kind of monotonous... And that's ok if you like monotony...

But... I. Got. Bored.

LOL.

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Sooo....

I'm working on something.

Wow. I feel like it's been a long time since I typed that sentence. Haha.

I'm hella excited is what I am...

Hihi.

Baby STEPS!

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Oooh! I saw Ratatouille yesterday.

:)

I know, I know. My movie card is just all delayed and stuff. Haha.

Oh and I finally saw Twilight. LOL.

New Moon na, Twilight palang napanood ko. Haha.

Tonight, I'm thinking of watching Pirates of the Carribean 2 and Transformers 1 & 2. LOL.

Yes, I have not seen all three.

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This year, I'm going to make a valiant effort to cut the drama...

Haha.

I know, right?

Well... Who knows? I could actually succeed.

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Oh and just because I'm feeling all nostalgic... Here are some of the past years' "first-of-the-year" posts.

2009 - http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/761/
2008 - http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/249/

And here's my first ever Multiply post. LOL.

http://danabelle.multiply.com/journal/item/1/

I've been on Multiply for 5 years!!! My, how time flies...

I guess we should probably make the most of every second... :)

Kissy kissy shimshimshimmy!