Danabelle in Lyrical Shorts

"I'm gonna take a little time... A little time to think things over."

Funny.

This song played earlier on and I was on the brink of tears.

It's weird how this is probably exactly how I feel right now.

"In my life there's been heartache and pain. I don't know if I can face it again. I can't stop now. I've travelled so far to change this lonely life. I want to know what love is. I want you to show me."

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"Oooh there's something about her... Something about her..."

There's a part of me that wants to be that girl... Actually, for the longest time I was that girl. Up until now, the biggest part of me is that girl...

...But there's a part of me that's itching to be weak for the man who'll be strong enough for me...

"She's got her own thing. Miss Independent. That's why I love her."

...And that part is actually growing every day. Pretty soon, I'll be a damsel in friggin' distress.

Hahaha. Fancy that?

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"Now I see your face drop... Told you not to leave me alone... And now that I got my own."

This played on the radio on our way to the airport.

It made me laugh.

"I see your face drop, I told you not to count me out, 'cause you always try to fill me with doubt saying I would look better if I was thinner, but you know you should have loved me for my inner. When I left you, I came out a winner."

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"Like Dr. Zhivago, all my love I'll be sending. And you will never know, 'cause there can be no happy ending..."

I'm currently listening to the songs that I got from Tin. LOL. Throwback... 98 degrees ampf.

Funny thing... I have this recurring fantasy running for about 7 or 8 years now, about how I'll end up with the perfect guy, the guy that I'll love forever and ever, but then oh so suddenly, Monsieur First Love would show up telling me how much he really loves me and how we should be together.

"It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do to look you in the eye and tell you I don't love you. It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie to show no emotion when you start to cry. I can't let you see what you mean to me. When my hands are tied and my heart's not free. We're not meant to be."

How messed up am I? Even in my own fantasies, I end up having a WEIRD LUKEWARM ending.

"It's the hardest thing I'll ever had to do to turn around and walk away pretending I don't love you."

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"Your subtleties, they strangle me. I can't explain myself at all."

...And so we're here.

"The walls start breathing. My mind's unweaving. Maybe it's best that you leave me alone."

...Where we're supposed to be...

"I can't explain what you can explain. You're finding things that you didn't know... I look at you with such disdain."

...Where fate has chosen to place us...

"A weight is lifted. On this evening, I give the final blow."

...And we must simply accept the situation that has been presented.

"It's too late to fight. It ends tonight."

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Goodbye October. You were fun. But you have to go now. It was good knowing you.

...

Hello November. :) I love you forever.

Bisprin,

Kita ko agad yung tissue. Haha. Wala lang.

Miss na kita agad. :(

Basta sa 113, pupunta ako kasama ang mga baby ko na nasa sinapupunanan pa na papangalanang Joben at Karlovelle. Bwahahaha. Kambal. Isang lalake at isang bading, este girl, eh bading narin.

Balik ka na agad. Gusto na kasi i-launch ng producers ang "The B Word" as soon as possible. Waging wagi daw kasi ang storyline... Tipong CHILL lang. *Sabay chill pose*

Pramis pag balik mo may bigas na kami, para di ka na aalis.

Blahahaha.


Labyu! Mishu!

See you next ... week!

Hahaha.


As Always,
D.


P.S.: Aralin mo na yung dance steps ng "nobadibachu" para sa opening credits ng "The B Word". Mwahmwahmwah!

Crush ko...

Not So Humble Top Fifteen @ #14

Grawrrr.

Happy Halloween.

...Just finished bidding goodbye to three full plastic bags of shoes. Le sigh.

Tchüss. :) ...It's been fun.

Dear JR,

Thank You.

You have kept Your promise.

As I spoke to You yesterday and called out Your name I felt something move within me. And I knew that You had heard me. You always hear me, even at times when I feel that I'm not meant to be heard, you patiently listen to me.

Thank You for Your messages. Thank You for Your blessings. Thank You for this particular blessing. I will continue to call out Your name and ask that You will bring this into completion. That You will heal him completely. And that You will bless them and keep them, that You will make Your face to shine upon them and give them peace.


As Always,
D.

Dear DBNL,

Oddly enough, my mind caught up with my heart. In a blink of an eye, I realized the one thing that I've been trying to deny, refused to understand, believe, and think about.


As Always,
D.


P.S.: I heart you. ...But don't worry about it. It's just a "heart". :) DBNL...

Dear 1:06,

There's so much to be said, but I can't really find the right words to relay it.

A friend asked me today how I was or particularly how the sauce was... I told him that I was fine and that the sauce was fine, too, but I just haven't been able to give any of my attention to it. Oh but I'd like to though. It's a sickness, I think. The need to just let your mind wander off on paper or on screen. ...There's a word for it, but I forgot what it is... I'd research it, but I'm in no mood.

I feel that there's a void that needs to be filled, but I really don't want to focus on that right now. Neither do I want to focus on the fact that my eyes are begging to be closed because I lack sleep.

For the past two days, I've been waking up at the same time. With no alarm to wake me up or anything... Just bright and early at 8:34, I'm up and at 'em. ...I'm not complaining, I'm just telling you that that's how it's been for the past two days.

I wanted to say something of importance, but I just can't bring myself to do it... Then again, it's past 1am, maybe I'll just pick this up again tomorrow and write again.

For what it's worth, it's not because of you or anything that you did. It's just me and my incessant need to just be that girl. The girl who can't sit still.

Yeah... That's all it is. I can't apologize for it even if I wanted to.

There's so much more to be said, but it's past 1am and I need sleep. Maybe tonight I'll be able to dream that everything is alright, that it can be alright, and that it would be alright.

...'Cause you know it really should.


As Always,
D.


P.S.: I'm not as sane as I appear to be... But then again, I'm not as insane as you think I am either.

You could have knocked me out with a ... feeaaattthhheeerrrr. Blahahahahahahahaha. Laughtrip. Sarap. Parang me laughing gas lang eh.

Make-up Monday - LATELATELATE

Hey girls!

I know this is hella late...

But I had a friend over yesterday... And we were all busy cooking and e'rything.

Sorry... Better late than never, right?

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Last week, Recy asked me to do a tutorial on E.L.F.'s Eyebrow Kit.

:)

My eyebrow kit in Medium.

LOL. I never use this kit. Ever. LMAO.

I usually start off with concealing and foundation and then I do my eyebrows.

But we're skipping the concealing and foundation step today. Just check out the brows.

1. Start filling your brows with the gel (left box) using the angled side of the tiny little brush. (That brush is friggin' annoying to use at first, but you'll get used to it.)

2. After filling it in you can go ahead and place the powder (right box) over it, but what I usually do is after I fill it in with the gel I use a clear mascara, you can use E.L.F. or any other brand. I have a AED2 clear mascara from the 12345Dirham Shop that I use everyday (I was looking for it for this tutorial, but I couldn't find it. I think hiniram na naman ng GHOTS ko. LOL.)

E.L.F. Wet Gloss Lash & Brow Clear Mascara

3. After the mascara, I put the powder (right box) in using the rounded side of the tiny little annoying brush...


4. Then, you take your eyebrow brush and just give it one last sweeparoo.


The end result?

This is with just one brow done. LOL. Parang tanga lang eh.

And here's both.

Again, the eyebrow kit is great for when you want a more bolder look and if you have a couple more minutes to spare.

If you're in a big big rush and you want really natural looking eyebrows that are understated, then use E.L.F.'s Studio Treat & Tame.

Both are great products that are different so one isn't necessarily better than the other.

:) Hope this helped, Recy. :) Love you, Mahal.

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Also last week, Ella asked me for tips on how to get your lipstick to last. Based on my experience, there are three different ways to do this...

1. Line your lips with a lipliner that's a similar shade to your lipstick and color it in... Put your lipstick over it. The liners last longer.

2. There are semipermanent liptints on the market. Waterproof/foodproof. Those are great you just have to keep reapplying the gloss to keep it shiny but the color lasts like forever. You'll need a makeup remover to remove it, too btw.

3. Don't eat. Drink. Or talk. Don't even smile. LOL. I'm kidding.

Love you, Eller. :) Hihihi. Mwah! I miss you, btw.

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Mini E.L.F. Haul!!!

Yayyy!

Luscious Liquid Lipstick in Pink Lemonade. Tried it. Loved it. It doesn't glide on too pink.

E.L.F.'s  LLL line feels and looks lot more like lipgloss than lipstick. Which works well for me, because I'm a gloss girl.

Haven't tried this yet. I've been meaning to, but I haven't had the chance.

This, too. Haven't tried it yet. But it looks pretty awesome...

I've tried both. I have to say I still like their Studio mascara more. I mean it's not bad, but yeah, when I finish my mascara, I'll probably order the other Studio mascara instead.

Waterproof Eyeliner Pen in Ash... Which looks a lot more blue than ash, which was a little disappointing. But ehhh. It's ok.

This, I love...

I have nothing against my brush belt... But I figured this would be easier for storage... (That and I'm thinking of getting another set of brushes... Hahaha.)

Ah and this... Dahil hindi pa ako naawa sa sarili ko at gusto ko pang mas pakumplikahin ang buhay ko.

LOL.

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About a month ago, we did this:

Model: Miss Aiza Caliso
Hair & Make-up: Yours Truly
Photographs by Monsieur Marc Anthony Guittap

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Kikay Kwestyon

Trick or Treat... What look are you planning for Halloween?

Check out Baby Versus Giant at HV. It's some kind of awesome. :) -- http://www.humblevoice.com/babyvsgiant

4 washes later and my hair is still bleeding. Kamusta naman? Buhay Kikay, why like this??? My gosh.

And what do you know... Ako pala ang "guest star". Now there's a twist that you didn't expect now did you?

Dear F.,

Wow...

So it seems we're here again.

I would tell you that I expected this, but I really didn't. Of all the idiotic things to do... I mean I knew you weren't all in there, but c'mon, this was really low... And you even refuse to take responsibility for it.

Just like you refuse to take responsibility for everything.

Oh well... Sige na nga, ako na lang ang aako. Ako na lang ang gago, eh totoo naman kasi. Gaga narin para both genders are covered. Ano pa? Tanga, ay totoong tanga talaga ako, tignan mo namang nainlove pa ako sayo a billion years ago kundi ako tanga. Bobo at boba? Pwede. Kasama narin naman yun sa tanga. Ano pa? Atribida, intrimitida, intriguerra? Yes, yes, and heck yes. Lahat yun, ganon ako. Ano pa? Tarantada and effed up? Obviously. Hindi ko naman dinedeny. Ano pa ba? Bitch. Oh sure. Tinatanggap ko yan buong buo. I am a bitch.

But you know what, eventhough I'm a bitch, allow me to just tell you how perfect you are. That you are right and I'm wrong...

Yes, you're right. You're always right. I am always wrong. So wrong... Terribly wrong... Galing mo talaga! Grabe, bilib ako sayo.

You're the best!

...I hope that helps you sleep at night.


As Always,
D.


P.S.: Wala din pala akong isang salita... Ehhh... Ano naman ngayon?

It's raining.

I love the way you say Good Morning. ...And you take me the way I am. :)

is marinating her vocal chords in honey and chamomile tea.

Dear Gaaaah,

Wow.

I know this might seem like such an overdramatic overeaction, but oh my gosh.

Eff you.

You, you, you! How dare you???

Gaaaah.


As Always,
D.


P.S.: That was mine. Mine. Mine. Mine. And you took it without permission. I hate you.

Ang tahimik naman dito...

...It may seem like a stretch, but it's thoughts like this that catch my troubled head when you're away and I am missing you to death. -- iLy. <3

And isn't this exactly where you want me? I'm exactly where you want me, you know.

Danabelle in Purple Heart Shorts

Wow. So I haven't shorted in a friggin' while!

How've y'all been?

I've been pretty ok, I suppose.

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There are days when I write with such eloquence...

Today is not one of days.

Forgive me.

However, despite the ineloquence, I will make a valiant effort to short.

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Last Friday...

They came over.

That weird smile on my face is 'cause K's car sexually harassed me in my nice parts.

Went to Krispy Kreme at Orange County SoCal, Ajman.

After, we went to Mozart and did this...

I miss that guy there on the right.

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Today...

This came:

Aiza

Ella

Christianneloves

Mine! :D

I'll elaborate on Monday. :)

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It's funny how daft I can be sometimes.

Actually, not sometimes. All the friggin' time.

I'm so daft, I don't even know about some things that are going on in my own life.

Pfsh.

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Yesterday...

My girl Tentay and I went to the beach.

Nightswimming errr tampisawing. ROCKCLIMBING. Running around. CATS. Headless Starfish. :( SandyLala. Haha. Flattops. Soundtrip. Bon Jovi. LMAO.

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Oooh!!! There's a friggin hat in Lee Cooper that I sooo want.

May I interest anyone in buying me that as a Halloween present?

Nyahahaha.

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Still today...

Yes. Eto na! Eto na! Eto na!!! No turning back.

Since, I don't have any money to renew my wardrobe with 2009's fall colors... I decided to color my hair Aubergine instead.

For those who don't know aubergine is a fancy way of saying eggplant.

Yes, pinagkulay talong ko ang buhok ko.

Buti nalang wala tatay ko dito, kundi isang linggo na naman akong di kakausapin non.

:-OMG.

Hella ghetto. LMAO. Sa lalagyanan ng mushroom na minix barbecue stick pa pinangmix.

Parang Carrie lang eh. LOL.

Happy Halloween! LMAO.

Ayan parang me regla lang. Blahahaha. Ewww.

Et voila...

Parang walang nangyari. Blahahaha. Bussett.

T: De, meron talaga! Sa picture wala, pero meron sa personal. Nyahahaha.

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Hmmm...

Wala na akong ma-short.

I told you I'm not eloquent today.

I miss you like crazy. I love you just as much. Kissy kissy!

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P.S.: Pwedeng pakiexplain sa'kin kung baket ang sound effects ng trumpet ng toothbrush holder ko says, "Ba"? Please pakiexplain lang. Di kinaya ng comprehension skills ko, eh.

Nyahahaha.

i<3u. :)