Dear Crush,

"Dear someone, listenin' in the shadows. I only talk to you sometimes. And though I ask for help in riddles, it is clearer in my mind. Clearer in my mind."

I was listening to Regina Spektor on my way to the beach this morning and I was of course thinking about you.

Of course, right? What else could I have been thinking of except you?

What would I tell you if I could actually talk to you?

Everything, I guess.

I'd tell you that I miss you and that I long to be with you. No wait, that's a lie. Haha. Yes, I miss you, but no I don't long to be with you. Not just yet. Ok wait no, I don't even really miss you, 'cause we've just recently spoken... But ok, for the sake of how love crush letters are supposed to go, let's just say that I do miss you.

I'd tell you that everytime my phone rings, I'm wishing that it's you. I wish that my phone in it's robotic voice would utter your name. Three syllables that would actually make a difference in my day. Ok, no that's a lie, again. It wouldn't really make a difference in my day, probably just my hour, or whatever. Point is, I'd be really really happy.

I would tell you that whenever a window pops up on my screen, I'm wishing that it's you... Just asking me whatever and that when I don't see your name on my messenger list, my smile becomes just a little bit smaller.

And I guess, I'd tell you that I didn't exactly mean for this to happen. And then I would proceed to blame you for what has become of my feelings.

Yes, this is all your fault. If you weren't such a giant flirt, this letter wouldn't even have been thought of. But alas, you were a big humongous flirty flirty person, and I have fallen for your boyish charm. Silly me. Tsk.

What do you do with girls like me?

"I'd love 'em.", I wish you'd say. But what are the odds of that happening? Slim to none? Tsk.

Oh but you know what? You are mighty lucky that I've lost all of my self confidence. If I hadn't, I'd have done a bad bad thing... And you might have actually liked it.

Haha.

What? I'm just sayin'.

LOL.

Anyway, I know that this, too shall pass. But now that it's here, I'll just have to deal with it... And this is me dealing with it. I hope you're well.


As Always,
D.