Danabelle in Philosophical Shorts

Philosophically speaking, I'm a dunce, so forgive me as I ponder on things of no real essence.

Of late, I keep wondering how different it would have been, if I had done things differently or if I hadn't done them at all.

Thoughts come rushing in and I try to brush it off, knowing that I won't like what I'll remember.

If you think about it long enough, you'll realize how ironic it is.

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D: You asked me. What did you want me to do, lie?
J: Can you repeat that? I think I'm hallucinating, because I think I just saw my girlfriend break up with me with no proper explanation.
D: Look, I'm sorry.
J: Sorry's not good enough.
D: I know, but that's all I can give you right now.

I'm sorry.

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I wish I didn't wait that long. It would have probably been even more wrong, but time would have healed it. Of course I could also wish that I waited longer... But I know I wouldn't have been able to contain it anyway.

And you could argue that time would heal this... But it's been too long. It should've been healed by now.

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Isn't it funny how you can look at something and go, "Oh crap."?

Highly anticlimactic, but it's funny. Trust me.

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There are just some things that you can't tell anyone. Not because you're being selfish and you want to keep the information all to yourself, but because you know that no one would ever understand it, because you would never be able to explain it as well as you should... And them trying to understand it would never ever be good enough, so why bother with trying to explain yourself.

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My weekend was kind of eventful, yes. Thank you for asking. The thing was cancelled though. Too bad. Anyway, here were some of the key points of my weekend.

• The MES guys were nice. :)
• Sedfrey came to the workshop. And I took peekchurs from his camera, because I was saving up my batteries for the supposed "thing" that didn't take place, so I didn't bring mine. Sed, post the thing already. Hehe.
  
• Ang mga nagkatawang tao - Julie (Fbook friend, di ko na nalapitan. Nawala bigla, sayang.), Dox (Bungisngis nga!), Liv (Ang ganda n'ya, sobra.), Konan (Hindi na s'ya drawing.), Pogi (Aba'y pogi nga. At in fairness, carry n'ya ang hot pink.), Benet (Kala ko suplada, but she's really nice. Ang ganda pa ng smile.), Jeff (Hindi ako nakahingi ng autograph, sayang.).
  
• SuperStudio. Haha. We were supposed to go out, but unfortunately, walang nagising. Kami lang ni Cay, yung dalawa kasi ehhh... LOL. I'll post the pictures later, if the connection cooperates with me.
  
• One Tree Hill Dramaramathon. (Ice, nagpakasal na sila. Kinilig ako.)
  

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What if I had made better choices? How different would life have been? Would I still be me? What if I made different choices? Would I be better off? Who would I have been now?

Where would I be?

I'm supposing that since I am notoriously curious, if I had done things differently, I would probably be sitting at different place, living a different life, looking at different things, but I would still be asking the same question.

All that I've done has defined who I am. But who I am is still a question.

...Or is it really?

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P.S.: I'm walking barefoot with my heart on my sleeve. I could tell you why, but broken as I am, there's no coherent way to explain it. You'll just have to take that as it is.