It's not the palemoon...
Why can't I free your doubtful mind?
Something has to make you run...
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Dear Memory,
One of these days, I may give up. Please know that if this happens that it's not because I wanted to. But because it's the only option that I have to keep my sanity in tact.
One of these days, you may give up. I will understand. I am, afterall, not the easiest person to get along with. And given the circumstances, there are a few other reasons that I could think of, but can not write... Just know, that if this happens, I understand. I won't even ask for you to bid me goodbye. Just go. We all have to do what we need to.
One of these days, I know that our transient stay in this country will end and if it isn't me who will be leaving, it will be you. We will most likely promise each other to keep in touch and I'm sure that we will try our best to do so. But things will happen and our promises will be forgotten. You will be busy with your life and I will be busy with mine. Pretty soon days will turn into weeks and weeks will turn into months and before we know it, years would pass and neither of us would have heard a word from the other.
If we really aren't destined for each other, I know that one of these days, you will just be a distant memory of someone I loved, pined, and longed for.
Remember me as I remember you. Remember me as you look at faded photographs and dusty old trinkets.
...Remember me as the girl who loved you, but you couldn't love back.
As Always,
D.
One of these days, you may give up. I will understand. I am, afterall, not the easiest person to get along with. And given the circumstances, there are a few other reasons that I could think of, but can not write... Just know, that if this happens, I understand. I won't even ask for you to bid me goodbye. Just go. We all have to do what we need to.
One of these days, I know that our transient stay in this country will end and if it isn't me who will be leaving, it will be you. We will most likely promise each other to keep in touch and I'm sure that we will try our best to do so. But things will happen and our promises will be forgotten. You will be busy with your life and I will be busy with mine. Pretty soon days will turn into weeks and weeks will turn into months and before we know it, years would pass and neither of us would have heard a word from the other.
If we really aren't destined for each other, I know that one of these days, you will just be a distant memory of someone I loved, pined, and longed for.
Remember me as I remember you. Remember me as you look at faded photographs and dusty old trinkets.
...Remember me as the girl who loved you, but you couldn't love back.
As Always,
D.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Danabelle came home...
Sabi ng Singsnap umuwi na daw ako... Kanina pa daw ako. Bwahahaha. Ipasabukas naman daw.
P.S.: Gracee, ayaw talaga ni Oleta Adams sa'kin. Nyahahaha. Ilang beses ko inulit. Di kaya. Hahaha.
Danabelle in Charlie's Shorts
I had a very weird dream last night... Actually, it was a pretty horrible dream.
I dreamt that my boyfriend died.
Granted, I don't have a boyfriend, but in the dream the grief was so real that I had tears in my eyes when I woke up.
Girls, I know it's not Make-up Monday, but I just received a note from E.L.F. that their mineral lipstick line is on 70% off.
Code: getlip
The whole lipstick line for $20. Now if that ain't a deal, I don't know what is.
Something stung last night. It stung really bad.
Thankfully Charlie was there... Not doing anything really. He was just there.
Which is sometimes all I ever really need...
...For someone to just be there.
I recently realized I'm a sucker for compliments. Hahaha. Like I will most probably love you forever if you compliment me.
I'm also a sucker for complements... But that's a different story. One that is very hard to explain.
And all of this could be metaphorical, but a lady would never tell.
So, I was finally able to sing this song without crying... Ang hirap nga eh, ni wala man lang emotion. Kinailangan ko pa mag-internalize. LOL. Look at me all moving on and stuff... Haha.
...What I'm apprehensive about though is that baka may kapalit naman. Hindi nga ito iniiyakan ko... Iba naman. Bussett.
May tinatanong ka sa'kin kanina...
Pinilit kitang balewalain na lang. Hindi ko kasi masagot.
...Hindi ko kasi kayang sabihin sa'yo na nasaktan ako. ...At nasasaktan ako.
I dreamt that my boyfriend died.
Granted, I don't have a boyfriend, but in the dream the grief was so real that I had tears in my eyes when I woke up.
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Girls, I know it's not Make-up Monday, but I just received a note from E.L.F. that their mineral lipstick line is on 70% off.
Code: getlip
The whole lipstick line for $20. Now if that ain't a deal, I don't know what is.
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Something stung last night. It stung really bad.
Thankfully Charlie was there... Not doing anything really. He was just there.
Which is sometimes all I ever really need...
...For someone to just be there.
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I recently realized I'm a sucker for compliments. Hahaha. Like I will most probably love you forever if you compliment me.
I'm also a sucker for complements... But that's a different story. One that is very hard to explain.
And all of this could be metaphorical, but a lady would never tell.
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So, I was finally able to sing this song without crying... Ang hirap nga eh, ni wala man lang emotion. Kinailangan ko pa mag-internalize. LOL. Look at me all moving on and stuff... Haha.
...What I'm apprehensive about though is that baka may kapalit naman. Hindi nga ito iniiyakan ko... Iba naman. Bussett.
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May tinatanong ka sa'kin kanina...
Pinilit kitang balewalain na lang. Hindi ko kasi masagot.
...Hindi ko kasi kayang sabihin sa'yo na nasaktan ako. ...At nasasaktan ako.
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PostSecret!
Hihi.
I love you.
I love you.
Monday, July 27, 2009
Dear Charlie,
How are you? I miss you, I hope you know.
There's a certain sense of ambiguity in the air and though things like that are rarely welcomed, I am choosing to embrace it wholeheartedly, because I feel that this is the only way that I can breathe right now.
Constrained, is a good word. Bound is another. However, both words don't really convey the graveness of it all. Certainty and ambiguity as it seems have become one. Oxymoronic as that may seem, it is what it is. I'm sure you understand as you almost always do.
I am engulfed in emotions that can not be expressed. Of course, incidences such as these are never new and I should have probably grown accustomed to it. But your opinion on the same would be swayed, I'm sure, if you were in my shoes.
Candle drippings on the furniture appeal to me. So do rusty candlesticks. Or empty bottles sitting on the windowsill. I find beauty in the strangest things just like you do. And just like you, I want things that I don't want, things that I don't need, and things that I can't have...
I know you know what I'm talking about. And no, Charlie, I don't want any advice. I don't want to be consoled or comforted. And I don't want any words of wisdom. I don't even really want to talk about it, because I wouldn't know what to say... I just need you, Charlie. Just knowing that you're there to hug me when my eyes start to well-up and to hand me a handkerchief when the tears start to fall is enough.
Yes, certainty and ambiguity have become one. Oxymoronic as that may seem, you know I'm certainly ambiguous and I know that you would understand that as you almost always do.
As Always,
D.
There's a certain sense of ambiguity in the air and though things like that are rarely welcomed, I am choosing to embrace it wholeheartedly, because I feel that this is the only way that I can breathe right now.
Constrained, is a good word. Bound is another. However, both words don't really convey the graveness of it all. Certainty and ambiguity as it seems have become one. Oxymoronic as that may seem, it is what it is. I'm sure you understand as you almost always do.
I am engulfed in emotions that can not be expressed. Of course, incidences such as these are never new and I should have probably grown accustomed to it. But your opinion on the same would be swayed, I'm sure, if you were in my shoes.
Candle drippings on the furniture appeal to me. So do rusty candlesticks. Or empty bottles sitting on the windowsill. I find beauty in the strangest things just like you do. And just like you, I want things that I don't want, things that I don't need, and things that I can't have...
I know you know what I'm talking about. And no, Charlie, I don't want any advice. I don't want to be consoled or comforted. And I don't want any words of wisdom. I don't even really want to talk about it, because I wouldn't know what to say... I just need you, Charlie. Just knowing that you're there to hug me when my eyes start to well-up and to hand me a handkerchief when the tears start to fall is enough.
Yes, certainty and ambiguity have become one. Oxymoronic as that may seem, you know I'm certainly ambiguous and I know that you would understand that as you almost always do.
As Always,
D.
Ano ba magandang trip ngayon?
...Trip mo bang mag-Country Pop?
...O mas trip mong mag-R&B Jazz?
...O baka naman mas gusto mong mag-Ska?
...Ah hindi, ito nalang. Mag-Disney ka nalang. Para bongga.
LOL.
...O mas trip mong mag-R&B Jazz?
...O baka naman mas gusto mong mag-Ska?
...Ah hindi, ito nalang. Mag-Disney ka nalang. Para bongga.
LOL.
Make-up Monday - KK Hangover
Hey girls!
It's been a slow make-up week. I didn't receive any shipments. And I don't have any FOTDs. LOL. I've been busy with preps for the Kikay Konference last Friday.
Thank you again to all the girls who came over. Hihihi.
I've still got some items left over from the stash.
ShopMyStash
Get 'em while you still can. :)
It's been a slow make-up week. I didn't receive any shipments. And I don't have any FOTDs. LOL. I've been busy with preps for the Kikay Konference last Friday.
Thank you again to all the girls who came over. Hihihi.
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I've still got some items left over from the stash.
ShopMyStash
Get 'em while you still can. :)
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Kikay Kwestyon
Color me bad... What color eyeshadows do you try to stay away from?
Sunday, July 26, 2009
May araw ka din...
*Talking about old crushes*
J: Lahat silang kinabaliwan natin, ang papanget na ngayon. Hahaha.
D: Nyahahaha. So, I should probably feel better about "him" not loving me right now, huh? ...Papanget din s'ya.
Bwahahaha. May araw ka din. Bussett ka.
J: Lahat silang kinabaliwan natin, ang papanget na ngayon. Hahaha.
D: Nyahahaha. So, I should probably feel better about "him" not loving me right now, huh? ...Papanget din s'ya.
Bwahahaha. May araw ka din. Bussett ka.
Today... Last year...
...I was here.
Sana last year parin... Ahihihi.
Happy Birthday!
I miss you!
See you soonest.
Sana last year parin... Ahihihi.
Happy Birthday!
I miss you!
See you soonest.
Friday, July 24, 2009
Stellar is a stunna...
Ahihihi.
Pasensya na sa pagkatopak ng files, ha? Hahayyyysss. Pinahiya ako ng MMC ni Dakota Trey.
I'll upload your photos as soon as I can.
Lovelovelovelove you, sweetheart ko.
Oh and thank you ulit.
Mmmwah!
Pasensya na sa pagkatopak ng files, ha? Hahayyyysss. Pinahiya ako ng MMC ni Dakota Trey.
I'll upload your photos as soon as I can.
Lovelovelovelove you, sweetheart ko.
Oh and thank you ulit.
Mmmwah!
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Kahirapan Relativity
L: Gusto nga sana kita itanong... Di ka ba nahihirapan?
D: Well... Considering the alternative, I know I can't do that. Mas mahirap yun.
Yan na lang ang iisipin ko ng paulit-ulit. Hahayyysss.
Bakit ba kailangang ikomplika ang buhay???
D: Well... Considering the alternative, I know I can't do that. Mas mahirap yun.
Yan na lang ang iisipin ko ng paulit-ulit. Hahayyysss.
Bakit ba kailangang ikomplika ang buhay???
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Danabelle in Pamamahay Shorts
Good morning, Multiply!
Surprise, surprise!
Early morning post... At shorts pa!
Bet you didn't think this would ever happen again...
Haha.
Sooo... I can't sleep. I've been having trouble sleeping for the past few days, but last night/this morning was even worse... Namahay ako.
...Which is weird because, usually, I can sleep anywhere.
There was one time (at bandcamp), I fell asleep inside a club with the speaker right next to me and everything. No exaggerations. I did that.
...And yet I couldn't sleep well last night. Tsk.
Vat is dis?
So hey, what's been happening with y'all?
I've been busy with preps on the Kikay Konference on Friday.
I'm hella psyched and I bet all my girls are, too.
I finished the decorations yesterday... Gift tags, too. And last night I was able to finish all the booklets.
Today, Grace and I are going to do the gift bags, hopefully we'll finish everything in record time.
Hihi.
Something stings.
But I'm sure it's not supposed to.
But it pinches.
I should probably forget about it... I know I should have forgotten it a long time ago, but it's hard to forget something that keeps appearing in front of you every darn day.
I mean seriously.
...Seriously.
...SERIOUSLY!?!?
I should probably write a letter, but I don't know what to say... And I've written so many goshdarned friggin' letters to this particular person, that I should probably change this site's name from Inside Dana's Head to <Insert His Name>'s Mailbox.
I mean, c'mon now.
Oooh! Cooking!
I'll be cooking all day today. I should probably start...
But I realize it's only 6am... And no cooking should be done at this hour...
At this hour, the only things that should be given attention are coffee and blogs.
Yeah. That's it. Coffee and blogs. Mmmm.
You know this is actually probably maybe my fault anyway...
I shouldn't let anyone or anything have so much power over me.
I mean, really.
Pet Society is being all floopy. I haven't been able to visit Anyanka for about three days now.
I miss her.
Does it really have to be this complicated?
Pwede bang ibato ko na lang 'tong puso ko in frustration while screaming, "Ayoko na!", sabay lupasay sa floor?
Pwede ba yun???
Nakakainis na eh.
Hayyyy.
Di mo lang alam... Ako'y iyong nasaktan... Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman.
Hayyy. Hayyy. Hayyy.
Umagang umaga emo na.
Ano ba itey?
Erase. Erase. Erase.
I need a diversion.
...Or a complication.
...Well come to think of it a diversion is a complication.
...I need either one of those.
Anyway, good morning! Happy Thursday, loves.
Kissy kissy.
Surprise, surprise!
Early morning post... At shorts pa!
Bet you didn't think this would ever happen again...
Haha.
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Sooo... I can't sleep. I've been having trouble sleeping for the past few days, but last night/this morning was even worse... Namahay ako.
...Which is weird because, usually, I can sleep anywhere.
There was one time (at bandcamp), I fell asleep inside a club with the speaker right next to me and everything. No exaggerations. I did that.
...And yet I couldn't sleep well last night. Tsk.
Vat is dis?
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So hey, what's been happening with y'all?
I've been busy with preps on the Kikay Konference on Friday.
I'm hella psyched and I bet all my girls are, too.
I finished the decorations yesterday... Gift tags, too. And last night I was able to finish all the booklets.
Today, Grace and I are going to do the gift bags, hopefully we'll finish everything in record time.
Hihi.
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Something stings.
But I'm sure it's not supposed to.
But it pinches.
I should probably forget about it... I know I should have forgotten it a long time ago, but it's hard to forget something that keeps appearing in front of you every darn day.
I mean seriously.
...Seriously.
...SERIOUSLY!?!?
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I should probably write a letter, but I don't know what to say... And I've written so many goshdarned friggin' letters to this particular person, that I should probably change this site's name from Inside Dana's Head to <Insert His Name>'s Mailbox.
I mean, c'mon now.
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Oooh! Cooking!
I'll be cooking all day today. I should probably start...
But I realize it's only 6am... And no cooking should be done at this hour...
At this hour, the only things that should be given attention are coffee and blogs.
Yeah. That's it. Coffee and blogs. Mmmm.
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You know this is actually probably maybe my fault anyway...
I shouldn't let anyone or anything have so much power over me.
I mean, really.
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Pet Society is being all floopy. I haven't been able to visit Anyanka for about three days now.
I miss her.
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Does it really have to be this complicated?
Pwede bang ibato ko na lang 'tong puso ko in frustration while screaming, "Ayoko na!", sabay lupasay sa floor?
Pwede ba yun???
Nakakainis na eh.
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Hayyyy.
Di mo lang alam... Ako'y iyong nasaktan... Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman.
Hayyy. Hayyy. Hayyy.
Umagang umaga emo na.
Ano ba itey?
Erase. Erase. Erase.
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I need a diversion.
...Or a complication.
...Well come to think of it a diversion is a complication.
...I need either one of those.
Anyway, good morning! Happy Thursday, loves.
Kissy kissy.
Monday, July 20, 2009
Make-up Monday - My MUA Career. LOL.
Hey girls!
How has your week been?
Mine was swell.
I had two photoshoots over the weekend...
I'm trying to get back on the saddle. ...Slowly, but surely. I'm getting there.
Friday...
Henry, Jess, and Loutis came over. Henry cooked some wicked pancit. Jess became the object of our tawanan. LOL. ...And I did this to Loutis:
Hindi kami masaya. Hindi talaga. Hahaha.
Ako na nag-makeup, pero natakot ako... Haha.
I think it means that it's effective. Hihihi.
Saturday...
I finally got to see Cor, Meech, and Ella. ...After one year!
Can you imagine? Tsk.
So for this shoot, we were going for subtlety. Just enough for a fresh-faced kind of thing, but not too much, because she's supposed to look like she just woke up...
The lowdown?
Skinfood's Rice Concealer (I LOVE THIS!) for undereye and minor blemishes. And Meech had pretty good skin, so E.L.F.'s Tinted Moisturizer in Tone 2 was enough... Did her eyebrows with E.L.F.'s Studio Eyebrow Kit, blush & contour with E.L.F.'s Studio Blush & Contour Kit, eyeshadow with E.L.F.'s Mini Make-up Kit (I used the two shadows on the topleft.), lips with E.L.F.'s plumping lipglaze in Oasis, highlights on the nose, cheeks, forehead, and chin with E.L.F.'s Healthy Glow Bronzing Powder in Luminance (I so love this. Crushed as it is. LOL.), E.L.F.'s Waterproof Lengthening and Volumizing Mascara in Brown for a more natural look, and finished off with E.L.F.'s Studio Translucent Mattifying Powder to set.
The result?
Free Samples: EDM came launched three darker toned foundations earlier this month. haven't tried any of them. But they look pretty awesome.
Midnight Garden Collection: These came with a free eyeliner brush. I have not tried them yet, but supposedly it's got less fall-off. I'm thinking that it'll feel like E.L.F.'s mineral eyeshadows which almost feel like they're wet.
Cookie Sheet Blush: They've discontinued this blush shade so I took the liberty of ordering it in large. It's the same shade as Raspberry Sherbet (which I adore, but has also been discontinued.), but RS is more silver and CS is more pink.
And oooh! I also got the Flat-top baby kabuki, which I forgot to take a picture of. It's absolutely adorable.
I have one extra, btw. If any of y'all want it, SMS (ShopMyStash)!
Hihihi.
Oooh girls, I'm gonna need you to confirm to me by tomorrow if you'll be coming for sure to the Kikay Konference this Friday... 'Cause Grace and me need a headcount for the souvenirs and handouts.
Thanks.
Kisses!!!
How has your week been?
Mine was swell.
I had two photoshoots over the weekend...
I'm trying to get back on the saddle. ...Slowly, but surely. I'm getting there.
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Friday...
Henry, Jess, and Loutis came over. Henry cooked some wicked pancit. Jess became the object of our tawanan. LOL. ...And I did this to Loutis:
Hindi kami masaya. Hindi talaga. Hahaha.Ako na nag-makeup, pero natakot ako... Haha.I think it means that it's effective. Hihihi.
*Photos by Monsieur Henry.
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Saturday...
I finally got to see Cor, Meech, and Ella. ...After one year!
Can you imagine? Tsk.
So for this shoot, we were going for subtlety. Just enough for a fresh-faced kind of thing, but not too much, because she's supposed to look like she just woke up...
The lowdown?
Skinfood's Rice Concealer (I LOVE THIS!) for undereye and minor blemishes. And Meech had pretty good skin, so E.L.F.'s Tinted Moisturizer in Tone 2 was enough... Did her eyebrows with E.L.F.'s Studio Eyebrow Kit, blush & contour with E.L.F.'s Studio Blush & Contour Kit, eyeshadow with E.L.F.'s Mini Make-up Kit (I used the two shadows on the topleft.), lips with E.L.F.'s plumping lipglaze in Oasis, highlights on the nose, cheeks, forehead, and chin with E.L.F.'s Healthy Glow Bronzing Powder in Luminance (I so love this. Crushed as it is. LOL.), E.L.F.'s Waterproof Lengthening and Volumizing Mascara in Brown for a more natural look, and finished off with E.L.F.'s Studio Translucent Mattifying Powder to set.
The result?
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Random EDM Stuff...
Random EDM Stuff...
Free Samples: EDM came launched three darker toned foundations earlier this month. haven't tried any of them. But they look pretty awesome.
Midnight Garden Collection: These came with a free eyeliner brush. I have not tried them yet, but supposedly it's got less fall-off. I'm thinking that it'll feel like E.L.F.'s mineral eyeshadows which almost feel like they're wet.
Cookie Sheet Blush: They've discontinued this blush shade so I took the liberty of ordering it in large. It's the same shade as Raspberry Sherbet (which I adore, but has also been discontinued.), but RS is more silver and CS is more pink.
And oooh! I also got the Flat-top baby kabuki, which I forgot to take a picture of. It's absolutely adorable.
I have one extra, btw. If any of y'all want it, SMS (ShopMyStash)!
Hihihi.
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Oooh girls, I'm gonna need you to confirm to me by tomorrow if you'll be coming for sure to the Kikay Konference this Friday... 'Cause Grace and me need a headcount for the souvenirs and handouts.
Thanks.
Kisses!!!
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Today... A year and 7 months ago...
...Give or take a few days.
"
Do you remember how it felt like to be young and in love? To see everything in beautiful colors...? To feel the tinglies at every second...? To have everything taste so sweet...? To be able to smile and giggle unendingly...?
It seems that as people grow older, the colors fade; the love fades; the sweetness fades; and the smiles fade.
I've grown older... But, I have you. And so, if I get asked if I remember how it felt like to be young and in love... I'd be able to say, "Yes..."
"...that's how I feel right now."
I wrote that for something... Something that was staged. Something that was just pretend. Something that wasn't really real.
I'm no prophet... But I'm hoping that when this year's sun-soaked season ends, it will come true...
"
Do you remember how it felt like to be young and in love? To see everything in beautiful colors...? To feel the tinglies at every second...? To have everything taste so sweet...? To be able to smile and giggle unendingly...?
It seems that as people grow older, the colors fade; the love fades; the sweetness fades; and the smiles fade.
I've grown older... But, I have you. And so, if I get asked if I remember how it felt like to be young and in love... I'd be able to say, "Yes..."
"...that's how I feel right now."
"
I wrote that for something... Something that was staged. Something that was just pretend. Something that wasn't really real.
I'm no prophet... But I'm hoping that when this year's sun-soaked season ends, it will come true...
Dear P.,
Hey...
I was listening to this song and I remembered you. It was around that time that this song was on heavy rotation on MTV. Actually, if I remember correctly, on one of our telebabad nights, this played on TV and I was humming and you forced me to sing it. Haha. Those were the days.
Funny how this song has now made its way back into my life and how I ended up feeling about you is now how someone feels about me.
How effed up is that?
Seriously?
But at least I don't have to ask why... I mean, things like that just happen. I should know because it happened to me.
So but hey how've you been? I haven't spoken to you in forever. I hope everything's well.
Bygones.
As Always,
D.
I was listening to this song and I remembered you. It was around that time that this song was on heavy rotation on MTV. Actually, if I remember correctly, on one of our telebabad nights, this played on TV and I was humming and you forced me to sing it. Haha. Those were the days.
Funny how this song has now made its way back into my life and how I ended up feeling about you is now how someone feels about me.
How effed up is that?
Seriously?
But at least I don't have to ask why... I mean, things like that just happen. I should know because it happened to me.
So but hey how've you been? I haven't spoken to you in forever. I hope everything's well.
Bygones.
As Always,
D.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Dear Theme Song,
"Give me one reason why you wouldn't want this kinda gal. 'Cause I stay dipped I stay laced. And I know you know I'm fly."
Moohahaha.
Eh di nahanap din kita! 'Kala mo, ha?!
I can't believe I forgot about you... I used to listen to you all the darned time.
It's funny how the things you look for eventually end up finding you.
"You can call me anytime you like. It doesn't matter day or night. We can do whatever you wanna do, it's up to you. Don't fight the feeling that you feel, I can tell that its real. So won't you help me understand why you say I'm just a friend?"
As Always,
D.
Moohahaha.
Eh di nahanap din kita! 'Kala mo, ha?!
I can't believe I forgot about you... I used to listen to you all the darned time.
It's funny how the things you look for eventually end up finding you.
"You can call me anytime you like. It doesn't matter day or night. We can do whatever you wanna do, it's up to you. Don't fight the feeling that you feel, I can tell that its real. So won't you help me understand why you say I'm just a friend?"
As Always,
D.
To Cor, Meech, & Ella:
I missed you!!!
Sobra.
Thank you for coming today.
I had fun.
Love you!
See you again soon.
Thank you for coming today.
I had fun.
Love you!
See you again soon.
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At the kitchen table... Si Mommy naglilinis, ako naman nagf-Facebook.
D: *Nagulat sa mga nakikita na people sa Facebook.* Grabe, oh. Lahat talaga nasa Facebook na. My goodness. Bongga.
M: *Naglilinis parin* Uy may bago na nga eh... Twitter.
D: *Napatigil at napatingin kay Mommy* May Twitter ka na rin?
M: *Walang katinag-tinag... Naglilinis parin.* Hindi pa... Magt-Twitter palang.
Bwahahaha. Oh diba? Bongga si Mommy.
D: *Nagulat sa mga nakikita na people sa Facebook.* Grabe, oh. Lahat talaga nasa Facebook na. My goodness. Bongga.
M: *Naglilinis parin* Uy may bago na nga eh... Twitter.
D: *Napatigil at napatingin kay Mommy* May Twitter ka na rin?
M: *Walang katinag-tinag... Naglilinis parin.* Hindi pa... Magt-Twitter palang.
Bwahahaha. Oh diba? Bongga si Mommy.
Friday, July 17, 2009
To my "GYM" Buddies:
Loutis
Thank you, sweetest! :) Ang pretty pretty mo talaga. Your bone structure is perfect. At ang lashesss!!! Promise. Hihihi. Sana nagenjoy ka. Grabe, di ako maka-get over, ako na nagmake-up pero natakot akey! Haha. Can't wait for you to get into this art... And I can't wait for our shoot with our "models" sa gym. *Tawang mahinhin.*
Henry
Pare, ehem, salamat sa pansit. The best! Swerte ng mapapangasawa mo.
...Pero shempre swerte ka rin sa kanya... May mural ka pa nga sa wall n'ya eh, diba? "Love you, Papa."
Bwahahaha.
Jess
Nyahahaha. Yun lang.
Wag ka map-pikon sa'kin. Makulit lang talaga akong sadya. Bongga.
...Happy weeksary nga pala. Looking forward to our "banana leaf" shoot... Para mai-frame at ilagay sa tabi ng bed. Bwahahaha.
De ito seryoso... I had super fun, guys! :) Thanks. Love y'all!
As Always,
D.
P.S.: "Miss you na. Mwahmwah."
Thank you, sweetest! :) Ang pretty pretty mo talaga. Your bone structure is perfect. At ang lashesss!!! Promise. Hihihi. Sana nagenjoy ka. Grabe, di ako maka-get over, ako na nagmake-up pero natakot akey! Haha. Can't wait for you to get into this art... And I can't wait for our shoot with our "models" sa gym. *Tawang mahinhin.*
Henry
Pare, ehem, salamat sa pansit. The best! Swerte ng mapapangasawa mo.
...Pero shempre swerte ka rin sa kanya... May mural ka pa nga sa wall n'ya eh, diba? "Love you, Papa."
Bwahahaha.
Jess
Nyahahaha. Yun lang.
Wag ka map-pikon sa'kin. Makulit lang talaga akong sadya. Bongga.
...Happy weeksary nga pala. Looking forward to our "banana leaf" shoot... Para mai-frame at ilagay sa tabi ng bed. Bwahahaha.
De ito seryoso... I had super fun, guys! :) Thanks. Love y'all!
As Always,
D.
P.S.: "Miss you na. Mwahmwah."
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Dear EF,
Naalala mo ba nung nagbreak tayo noon? Yung unang unang beses? Yeah, a million years ago... Bigla ko lang naisipan patugtugin yung "OST" nung break-up natin noon.
Wala lang. Trip lang. Alam mo naman ako... Kung ano lang maisipan...
...Mga nakaka-sampung ulit narin s'ya ngayon habang sinusulat ko 'to...
Wala lang natuwa lang ako. Ang ganda kasi nung song, sayang yung break-up natin ang forever na nakadikit don sa song na yun... Pero actually, natatawa ako pag naalala ko. Imagine, patay na patay ako sa'yo noon?!?!
My goodness.
Kanina ka-chat ko yung friend ko and we were talking about how hard it is for me to be friends with exes... Para sa'kin kasi, and you can feel free to correct me on this, it's just that I feel that lovers should be friends, the best of friends, and kung hindi magsurvive yung lovers part, how can you actually be friends? ...Eh parang in effect if you failed the lovers part, you must have failed the friends part.
So you understand kung bakit di kita maka-usap ng maayos. Sa totoo lang, ilang beses akong nagpabalik-balik, minsan gusto kitang tawagan. Just to catch up. Kaso nga lang, di ko ma-imagine na maging friend ka or kabarkada. Actually, ngayon iniimagine ko, pero hindi ko alam, ang gulo naman kasi ng history natin, at mas magulo ang break-up natin. Parang hirap magbounce-back from that. Duh buh? Tapos maging buddy buddy tayo... Parang... Errr...
Yun nga lang, naiisip ko lang na parang masarap siguro maging friend ang ex. Pero parang ang awkward. Hahaha. Ang gulo ko no? Ehhh. Lammu naman ako. Magulo talaga ako. Makulit pa.
Hayyyy...
Ewan ko ba. Siguro naiinis lang ako kasi in love na naman yata ako. Huy, hindi sa'yo ha. Wag kang assuming, tadyakan kita... Naiinis ako kasi, parang ang dami-dami kong emotions na gusto kong ipamigay, kaso wala akong mapagbigyan ng maayos. Hahaha. Get mo? I bet hindi... Ang hirap ko din naman kasing intindihin. Pero remember nung tayo? Yung kung gaano ako ka-sweet? Yung tipong langgaman ang bagsak mo. Eh parang gusto kong maging sweet ulit... Kaso kanino naman ako magpapasweet? I'm overflowing with sweetness, wala akong mapagbalingan. Hahaha.
De tsaka kasi alam mo yung parang hit & miss... Kaso parang puro miss. Bussett no? Hahaha. Dati kasi remember nung tayo? Parang click, pero hindi rin naman. Hahaha. Ngayon kasi, parang hirap maghanap ng ka-click... Meron ngang perfect guy, di ka naman pinapansin. Or meron ka naman love, pero hindi ka naman love.
Tsaka nam-miss ko yung feeling na alam kong may umiisip sa'kin. Hahaha. Yung may tumatawag na pwede mong i-set ang alarm clock mo sa schedule ng tawag. Yung may ka-holding hands... Or yung pag di nakatiis, sa boobs hahawak sabay kagat labi. Bwahahaha. Tsaka, nam-miss ko din ang break-ups. Haha. I know right? Pero ilang beses ba tayo nagbreak? 4? 5? Nyahahaha. Nakaka-miss yung ganon. Yung tipong paulit-ulit ka makikinig ng love songs tapos iiyak ka na parang gaga.
Iniisip ko, kung maging les na lang kaya ako, be... Ano sa tingin mo? Kasi puro mali ang mga nap-pili kong lalake. At yeah, isa ka na don sa mga piling kamalian. Hahaha. Bagay ko kaya maging les, bebe? Hahaha. I bet you'd like that. Oist, tigilan mo imagination mo, batukan kita. Kaso parang masyado akong maarte para maging les... Tsaka hindi naman ako attracted sa babae.
Hay ang gulo...
Ikaw naman kasi, ba't ba hindi ka nagpakatino na lang...? Eh di sana may bf parin ako hanggang ngayon. Bussett ka. Ayan tuloy... Napasulat tuloy ako sa'yo ng di oras.
Parang nakakatuwa lang mag-pretend na makakapag-usap tayo ng ganto. Parang ang sarap siguro kasi parang maiintindihan mo ako ng konti (kahit sobrang hirap), kasi kahit papaano at one point in time parang kinilala mo ako ng sobra kasi parang minahal mo ko. And in that sense, parang you could give me some insight kasi parang you know, first hand, how I am romantically.
Lammuyun?
Parang? Parang hindi? Haha.
Oh well. Oh, magpakatino ka na ha? Mabait ka naman eh... Sweet din. Gago ka lang.
As Always,
D.
Wala lang. Trip lang. Alam mo naman ako... Kung ano lang maisipan...
...Mga nakaka-sampung ulit narin s'ya ngayon habang sinusulat ko 'to...
Wala lang natuwa lang ako. Ang ganda kasi nung song, sayang yung break-up natin ang forever na nakadikit don sa song na yun... Pero actually, natatawa ako pag naalala ko. Imagine, patay na patay ako sa'yo noon?!?!
My goodness.
Kanina ka-chat ko yung friend ko and we were talking about how hard it is for me to be friends with exes... Para sa'kin kasi, and you can feel free to correct me on this, it's just that I feel that lovers should be friends, the best of friends, and kung hindi magsurvive yung lovers part, how can you actually be friends? ...Eh parang in effect if you failed the lovers part, you must have failed the friends part.
So you understand kung bakit di kita maka-usap ng maayos. Sa totoo lang, ilang beses akong nagpabalik-balik, minsan gusto kitang tawagan. Just to catch up. Kaso nga lang, di ko ma-imagine na maging friend ka or kabarkada. Actually, ngayon iniimagine ko, pero hindi ko alam, ang gulo naman kasi ng history natin, at mas magulo ang break-up natin. Parang hirap magbounce-back from that. Duh buh? Tapos maging buddy buddy tayo... Parang... Errr...
Yun nga lang, naiisip ko lang na parang masarap siguro maging friend ang ex. Pero parang ang awkward. Hahaha. Ang gulo ko no? Ehhh. Lammu naman ako. Magulo talaga ako. Makulit pa.
Hayyyy...
Ewan ko ba. Siguro naiinis lang ako kasi in love na naman yata ako. Huy, hindi sa'yo ha. Wag kang assuming, tadyakan kita... Naiinis ako kasi, parang ang dami-dami kong emotions na gusto kong ipamigay, kaso wala akong mapagbigyan ng maayos. Hahaha. Get mo? I bet hindi... Ang hirap ko din naman kasing intindihin. Pero remember nung tayo? Yung kung gaano ako ka-sweet? Yung tipong langgaman ang bagsak mo. Eh parang gusto kong maging sweet ulit... Kaso kanino naman ako magpapasweet? I'm overflowing with sweetness, wala akong mapagbalingan. Hahaha.
De tsaka kasi alam mo yung parang hit & miss... Kaso parang puro miss. Bussett no? Hahaha. Dati kasi remember nung tayo? Parang click, pero hindi rin naman. Hahaha. Ngayon kasi, parang hirap maghanap ng ka-click... Meron ngang perfect guy, di ka naman pinapansin. Or meron ka naman love, pero hindi ka naman love.
Tsaka nam-miss ko yung feeling na alam kong may umiisip sa'kin. Hahaha. Yung may tumatawag na pwede mong i-set ang alarm clock mo sa schedule ng tawag. Yung may ka-holding hands... Or yung pag di nakatiis, sa boobs hahawak sabay kagat labi. Bwahahaha. Tsaka, nam-miss ko din ang break-ups. Haha. I know right? Pero ilang beses ba tayo nagbreak? 4? 5? Nyahahaha. Nakaka-miss yung ganon. Yung tipong paulit-ulit ka makikinig ng love songs tapos iiyak ka na parang gaga.
Iniisip ko, kung maging les na lang kaya ako, be... Ano sa tingin mo? Kasi puro mali ang mga nap-pili kong lalake. At yeah, isa ka na don sa mga piling kamalian. Hahaha. Bagay ko kaya maging les, bebe? Hahaha. I bet you'd like that. Oist, tigilan mo imagination mo, batukan kita. Kaso parang masyado akong maarte para maging les... Tsaka hindi naman ako attracted sa babae.
Hay ang gulo...
Ikaw naman kasi, ba't ba hindi ka nagpakatino na lang...? Eh di sana may bf parin ako hanggang ngayon. Bussett ka. Ayan tuloy... Napasulat tuloy ako sa'yo ng di oras.
Parang nakakatuwa lang mag-pretend na makakapag-usap tayo ng ganto. Parang ang sarap siguro kasi parang maiintindihan mo ako ng konti (kahit sobrang hirap), kasi kahit papaano at one point in time parang kinilala mo ako ng sobra kasi parang minahal mo ko. And in that sense, parang you could give me some insight kasi parang you know, first hand, how I am romantically.
Lammuyun?
Parang? Parang hindi? Haha.
Oh well. Oh, magpakatino ka na ha? Mabait ka naman eh... Sweet din. Gago ka lang.
As Always,
D.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Danabelle in Homemade Shorts
Today...
I made a cheek & lip tint ala Benefit's Benetint. :) Hihihi.
I'm going to call it "DanabeeTint -- Tinted Grace"
Haha.
I've already doubled the amount of pigment that the recipe called for because the first batch was too light... I like the color as it is now, because it looks absolument naturelle...
My Mom's reaction - "Hmmm... Parang naarawan ka lang. Maganda, ah!"
But I'm still thinking whether I should just allow for it to be layered on to get it to a darker shade or just simply darken the whole thing...
I'll need to add something else to the mixture to get it darker. It's still safe and sort of natural, but... I don't know...
Grace, help me out here. LOL.
Tomorrow...
I'll be making lippyglosses. :) Hihihi.
Wish me luck. :D
Oooh! Also Today...
I was able to catch up with my girl L. Nag-abot din online. Hihihi.
It's so nice to be able to talk to her again kahit na through a computer screen lang.
And it's so nice how kahit na ang tagal namin di nag-usap or nag-kita (and when I say tagal, I do mean, parang one year na ata mahigit. LOL.), parang walang nagbago. Walang awkwardness or anything at all. Parang kahapon lang nagt-telebabad kami nung nasa Pinas pa ako. Parang wala lang.
I love that!
I love her. And I miss her too much.
L, if you're reading this, I know na ayaw mo talaga matuloy yun, pero I'm really hoping na matuloy sya, so I can finally see you again.
I'm looking forward to our someday stories. :) Hihihi. Lovelovelove you!
The green monster has been eating at me for the past two days.
Tsk.
I know, I know... It's so not me, right? Hahaysss.
What do you know? ...Babae pala talaga akey.
"I just can't look, it's killing me."
Sigh.
My mom was reading a forwarded email of Bob Ong quotes out loud kanina...
One of the quotes seemed to be incredibly apt for how these past few days have been feeling like...
"Kung hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo, wag kang magreklamo. Dahil may mga nagmamahal din sa'yo na hindi mo mahal. Kaya quits lang."
Fair's fair, I guess, huh?
Lovekisslovekiss!
I made a cheek & lip tint ala Benefit's Benetint. :) Hihihi.
I'm going to call it "DanabeeTint -- Tinted Grace"
Haha.
I've already doubled the amount of pigment that the recipe called for because the first batch was too light... I like the color as it is now, because it looks absolument naturelle...
My Mom's reaction - "Hmmm... Parang naarawan ka lang. Maganda, ah!"
But I'm still thinking whether I should just allow for it to be layered on to get it to a darker shade or just simply darken the whole thing...
I'll need to add something else to the mixture to get it darker. It's still safe and sort of natural, but... I don't know...
Grace, help me out here. LOL.
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Tomorrow...
I'll be making lippyglosses. :) Hihihi.
Wish me luck. :D
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Oooh! Also Today...
I was able to catch up with my girl L. Nag-abot din online. Hihihi.
It's so nice to be able to talk to her again kahit na through a computer screen lang.
And it's so nice how kahit na ang tagal namin di nag-usap or nag-kita (and when I say tagal, I do mean, parang one year na ata mahigit. LOL.), parang walang nagbago. Walang awkwardness or anything at all. Parang kahapon lang nagt-telebabad kami nung nasa Pinas pa ako. Parang wala lang.
I love that!
I love her. And I miss her too much.
L, if you're reading this, I know na ayaw mo talaga matuloy yun, pero I'm really hoping na matuloy sya, so I can finally see you again.
I'm looking forward to our someday stories. :) Hihihi. Lovelovelove you!
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The green monster has been eating at me for the past two days.
Tsk.
I know, I know... It's so not me, right? Hahaysss.
What do you know? ...Babae pala talaga akey.
"I just can't look, it's killing me."
Sigh.
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My mom was reading a forwarded email of Bob Ong quotes out loud kanina...
One of the quotes seemed to be incredibly apt for how these past few days have been feeling like...
"Kung hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo, wag kang magreklamo. Dahil may mga nagmamahal din sa'yo na hindi mo mahal. Kaya quits lang."
Fair's fair, I guess, huh?
Lovekisslovekiss!
Monday, July 13, 2009
Dear Buddy,
Alam mo... Minsan nagiging tanga ako. At hindi lang yun... Unreasonable pa.
Ang galing nga eh. I spend all of my days, hours, minutes, and seconds trying to be as smart as I can and trying to be as aware of the world around me as much as I can, while trying to fight off normal emotional instincts.
...Pero merong mga oras talaga na bigla na lang akong nawawala... May mga oras na di ko maiwasang magpadala sa mga emotional insanities na innate na siguro sa mga babae.
Sorry na. Tinotopak lang talaga ako...
Ang hirap kasi, hindi mo alam at hindi ko rin kayang ipa-intindi sa'yo. Lokaloka ako eh. Mahirap ipa-intindi yun.
Sorry na inaway kita. Sorry na ginulo kita. Sorry kasi kulot lang talaga ako minsan. Sorry na rin kasi alam ko hindi ito ang huling beses na susumpungin ako at ikaw na naman ang aawayin ko. Kung mags-sawa ka, ok lang. Kung ayaw mo na ko kausapin, ok lang din.
...Pero alam ko naman di mo ko matitiis. Cute kasi ako pag nagt-tantrums, diba?
Lovelovelovelovelove.
As Always,
D.
Ang galing nga eh. I spend all of my days, hours, minutes, and seconds trying to be as smart as I can and trying to be as aware of the world around me as much as I can, while trying to fight off normal emotional instincts.
...Pero merong mga oras talaga na bigla na lang akong nawawala... May mga oras na di ko maiwasang magpadala sa mga emotional insanities na innate na siguro sa mga babae.
Sorry na. Tinotopak lang talaga ako...
Ang hirap kasi, hindi mo alam at hindi ko rin kayang ipa-intindi sa'yo. Lokaloka ako eh. Mahirap ipa-intindi yun.
Sorry na inaway kita. Sorry na ginulo kita. Sorry kasi kulot lang talaga ako minsan. Sorry na rin kasi alam ko hindi ito ang huling beses na susumpungin ako at ikaw na naman ang aawayin ko. Kung mags-sawa ka, ok lang. Kung ayaw mo na ko kausapin, ok lang din.
...Pero alam ko naman di mo ko matitiis. Cute kasi ako pag nagt-tantrums, diba?
Lovelovelovelovelove.
As Always,
D.
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Make-up Monday - Haulage and KK2
Good morning, girls!
How are y'all this fine morning?
I hope everyone's woken up and all made up.
Kikay Konference 2 is on and poppin'.
Friday, July 24th at 3:30 pm at my place.
Please come early so that we can finish up early. As some of our girls have work the next day.
Our theme is all-natural. :) Natural make-up tips, tricks, and recipes. Hihihi.
So... First off, can I just apologize about the video?
Now to be fair, I shot it yesterday. Finished it all up and stuff...
...Problem is it's in .mov format, which apparently can not be recognized by Windows Movie Maker.
So now, I have about 45 minutes of make-up tutorial footage that I can't edit. And I can't very well upload it as it is.
Sorry. Sorry. Sorry.
Techie girls out there, can you help me out? Is there a FREE program that I can use without any watermarks or stuff like that? Cause the ones I found had a time limit and a watermark.
Oh wells.
Again, I'm sorry, girls. I know that I've been saying this every Monday, but I really am.
Yummy envelopes! Hihihi.
Don't you just love opening stuff up?
I do! Presents. Envelopes. Pandora's boxes.
You name it, I'll open it.
S-s-s-Studio! (And saling pusang $1 stuff.)
Studio Line: 2 x Complexion Perfection, 2 x Eye Primer & Liner Sealer, Hollywood Lashes, Eyebrow Treat and Tame in Light/Clear, Eyeliner & Shadow Stick in Pearl/Glow; Warm, Cool, and Golden Bronzers.
The Bronzers and Complexion Perfection are new additions to the studio line. The Complexion Perfection had pretty great reviews so I ordered two. I figured, I'd be needing those for photoshoots din kasi.
And to save up on shipping I added some $1 stuff.
$1 Stuff: 2 x Healthy Glow Bronzing Powder in Luminance (Remember the one that I crushed to bits? Yeah, I loved it so much, I ordered it again.), Waterproof Eyeliner Pen in Black, 2 x Waterproof Eyeliner Pen in Coffee,
Sadly, as with everything... Something must break...
Ouch.
Buti nalang dalawa na yung inorder ko na Luminance. LOL. The oher one was ok. This one, I'll crush to bits again. Hahaha.
The Warm Bronzer was just cracked on the side and crushing it would have been a waste. So...
...I fixed up with some alchohol, instead.
And remember my Free Mini?
I fixed it up, too. Just so the powder doesn't fly all over the place. It looks funny, I know. Wala kasi akong mahanap na pang-press sa kanya, so I used cotton buds. LOL. ...Parang dinutdot lang ng bata, eh.
LOL.
And now, onto the Mineral Haulage...
I've been wanting those lipsticks, but they were a bit pricy. Trust me to think that $5 is pricy. Hahaha. Kuripot ampf. So with the 50% off sale, chance ko na. Hahaha.
The lipglosses are a new addition to their Mineral Line. (At first, the code didn't work with them, and I was willing to get them at full price, but yayyy, when I tried it again kasama din s'ya sa 50%)
It's a lip army! Be warned. My lips are going to wage war.
Mineral Eye Liner in Black and Mineral Booster. The Booster I thought would be extremely helpful for shoots. Naubos kasi agad yung Translucent Mattifying Powder. LOL. At least ito mukhang matatagalan.
Thus endeth my haulage show and tell. :)
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...I stopped using it, kasi nabasag sya. I thought it best to crush it and use it.
My Yardley Concealer that I so loved, but can't find anywhere else... I bought a concealer brush just for it, para masimot ko, never got around to doing it until now. The Bodyshop concealer that I got about a few months ago is down to it's last few swipes. Ang bilis ko talaga mag-go through ng concealer. Ang dami kasing mga chuva eh. Hahaha. Tsk.
Oooh. And since the Johnson's Powder has been crushed to bits and is now living in an old EDM container...
Kenya has a new home! :) Hihihi.
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Teting, here's my surprise:
E.L.F.'s Mineral Lipstick Swatches.
So it'll be easier for you to choose which shade you'd like to buy. :)
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They seem to last pretty long. However, most of the shades look almost the same... Thankfully, they're all shades that I would wear. :) Oooh the neutral thrills I will have!
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Geoms wanted a review of EDM's Jane Austen Line...
Here you go, sweetie. Mwah!
Jane Eyre, Southern Belle, Dreaming Dandy, and Anna Karenina
Ok so first off, I'd like to say that I didn't really think that I'd like this collection. I just got it because it was with the compact and just so I could try it for kicks... But I ended up loving it.
Jane Eyre: It looks and feels like Hot Chocolate (which y'all know I love.), but Jane Eyre, is slighly darker and has a pinkish undertone. It has less shimmer, too. Personally, I like it. I'm a neutral girl.
Southern Belle: It's about a shade lighter than Ginger Peach. It is a lot more pink than it is peach.
Dreaming Dandy: It's Mistletoe without the shimmer.
Anna Karenina: This one, I really thought I'd hate. I'm just not a blue girl. I really can't pull off blue eyeshadow... Then came this gem. It's a pretty navy blue that borders on indigo.
My recommendation? It's a wonderful addition to anyone's EDM collection.
Here they are in action...
Face Of The Day:
Face
Blemishes and undereye concealer - "Simot Mode" Yardley and The Bodyshop Concealer in 2
Base - "Simot Mode" Johnson's Powder
Blush - Everyday Minerals Timeshare
Eyes
Inner Lid - Everyday Minerals Southern Belle
Outer Lid - Everyday Minerals Anna Karenina
Highlight and Underbrow - Everyday Minerals Jane Eyre
Eyeliner - Eyeko Magic Liner + Everyday Minerals Dreaming Dandy
Mascara - Clinique High Impact Mascara in Brown
Eyebrows - E.L.F. Studio Eyebrow Kit
Lips
E.L.F. Mineral Lipstick in Nicely Nude
The guys at the office loved this look on me, btw. Hihi.
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Kikay Kwestyon
Come on now, don't be shy. What parts of your face do you love the most?
How are y'all this fine morning?
I hope everyone's woken up and all made up.
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Kikay Konference 2 is on and poppin'.
Friday, July 24th at 3:30 pm at my place.
Please come early so that we can finish up early. As some of our girls have work the next day.
Our theme is all-natural. :) Natural make-up tips, tricks, and recipes. Hihihi.
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So... First off, can I just apologize about the video?
Now to be fair, I shot it yesterday. Finished it all up and stuff...
...Problem is it's in .mov format, which apparently can not be recognized by Windows Movie Maker.
So now, I have about 45 minutes of make-up tutorial footage that I can't edit. And I can't very well upload it as it is.
Sorry. Sorry. Sorry.
Techie girls out there, can you help me out? Is there a FREE program that I can use without any watermarks or stuff like that? Cause the ones I found had a time limit and a watermark.
Oh wells.
Again, I'm sorry, girls. I know that I've been saying this every Monday, but I really am.
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E.L.F. Haulage!!!
These came last Tuesday, I think... I'm not sure...
E.L.F. went on a 50% sale of their Studio line and Mineral line. Naturally, I had to get in on the action.
These came last Tuesday, I think... I'm not sure...
E.L.F. went on a 50% sale of their Studio line and Mineral line. Naturally, I had to get in on the action.
Yummy envelopes! Hihihi.Don't you just love opening stuff up?
I do! Presents. Envelopes. Pandora's boxes.
You name it, I'll open it.
S-s-s-Studio! (And saling pusang $1 stuff.)Studio Line: 2 x Complexion Perfection, 2 x Eye Primer & Liner Sealer, Hollywood Lashes, Eyebrow Treat and Tame in Light/Clear, Eyeliner & Shadow Stick in Pearl/Glow; Warm, Cool, and Golden Bronzers.
The Bronzers and Complexion Perfection are new additions to the studio line. The Complexion Perfection had pretty great reviews so I ordered two. I figured, I'd be needing those for photoshoots din kasi.
And to save up on shipping I added some $1 stuff.
$1 Stuff: 2 x Healthy Glow Bronzing Powder in Luminance (Remember the one that I crushed to bits? Yeah, I loved it so much, I ordered it again.), Waterproof Eyeliner Pen in Black, 2 x Waterproof Eyeliner Pen in Coffee,
Sadly, as with everything... Something must break...
Ouch.Buti nalang dalawa na yung inorder ko na Luminance. LOL. The oher one was ok. This one, I'll crush to bits again. Hahaha.
The Warm Bronzer was just cracked on the side and crushing it would have been a waste. So...
...I fixed up with some alchohol, instead.And remember my Free Mini?
I fixed it up, too. Just so the powder doesn't fly all over the place. It looks funny, I know. Wala kasi akong mahanap na pang-press sa kanya, so I used cotton buds. LOL. ...Parang dinutdot lang ng bata, eh.LOL.
And now, onto the Mineral Haulage...
I've been wanting those lipsticks, but they were a bit pricy. Trust me to think that $5 is pricy. Hahaha. Kuripot ampf. So with the 50% off sale, chance ko na. Hahaha.The lipglosses are a new addition to their Mineral Line. (At first, the code didn't work with them, and I was willing to get them at full price, but yayyy, when I tried it again kasama din s'ya sa 50%)It's a lip army! Be warned. My lips are going to wage war.Mineral Eye Liner in Black and Mineral Booster. The Booster I thought would be extremely helpful for shoots. Naubos kasi agad yung Translucent Mattifying Powder. LOL. At least ito mukhang matatagalan.Thus endeth my haulage show and tell. :)
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When I was fixing up my make-up after the haul came in... I had this nasty feeling.
...SOBRANG DAMI KO NA PALA TALAGANG MAKE-UP.
And I felt terrible about that.
So now I'm on simot mode... You know, making simot all the stuff that I ended up not using kasi I kept buying new stuff.
Waste not, want not.
...SOBRANG DAMI KO NA PALA TALAGANG MAKE-UP.
And I felt terrible about that.
So now I'm on simot mode... You know, making simot all the stuff that I ended up not using kasi I kept buying new stuff.
Waste not, want not.
This Johnson's Powder is probably a bajillion years old. LOL.
...I stopped using it, kasi nabasag sya. I thought it best to crush it and use it.My Yardley Concealer that I so loved, but can't find anywhere else... I bought a concealer brush just for it, para masimot ko, never got around to doing it until now. The Bodyshop concealer that I got about a few months ago is down to it's last few swipes. Ang bilis ko talaga mag-go through ng concealer. Ang dami kasing mga chuva eh. Hahaha. Tsk.Oooh. And since the Johnson's Powder has been crushed to bits and is now living in an old EDM container...
Kenya has a new home! :) Hihihi.----------------------------------------------------------------------
Teting, here's my surprise:
E.L.F.'s Mineral Lipstick Swatches.
So it'll be easier for you to choose which shade you'd like to buy. :)
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They seem to last pretty long. However, most of the shades look almost the same... Thankfully, they're all shades that I would wear. :) Oooh the neutral thrills I will have!
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Geoms wanted a review of EDM's Jane Austen Line...
Here you go, sweetie. Mwah!
Jane Eyre, Southern Belle, Dreaming Dandy, and Anna KareninaOk so first off, I'd like to say that I didn't really think that I'd like this collection. I just got it because it was with the compact and just so I could try it for kicks... But I ended up loving it.
Jane Eyre: It looks and feels like Hot Chocolate (which y'all know I love.), but Jane Eyre, is slighly darker and has a pinkish undertone. It has less shimmer, too. Personally, I like it. I'm a neutral girl.
Southern Belle: It's about a shade lighter than Ginger Peach. It is a lot more pink than it is peach.
Dreaming Dandy: It's Mistletoe without the shimmer.
Anna Karenina: This one, I really thought I'd hate. I'm just not a blue girl. I really can't pull off blue eyeshadow... Then came this gem. It's a pretty navy blue that borders on indigo.
My recommendation? It's a wonderful addition to anyone's EDM collection.
Here they are in action...
Face Of The Day:
Face
Blemishes and undereye concealer - "Simot Mode" Yardley and The Bodyshop Concealer in 2
Base - "Simot Mode" Johnson's Powder
Blush - Everyday Minerals Timeshare
Eyes
Inner Lid - Everyday Minerals Southern Belle
Outer Lid - Everyday Minerals Anna Karenina
Highlight and Underbrow - Everyday Minerals Jane Eyre
Eyeliner - Eyeko Magic Liner + Everyday Minerals Dreaming Dandy
Mascara - Clinique High Impact Mascara in Brown
Eyebrows - E.L.F. Studio Eyebrow Kit
Lips
E.L.F. Mineral Lipstick in Nicely Nude
The guys at the office loved this look on me, btw. Hihi.
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Kikay Kwestyon
Come on now, don't be shy. What parts of your face do you love the most?
Dear R.,
Look at me writing to you. Haha.
How bad is this that I've resorted to this? Must be pretty bad. I can't tell you just how much I miss you. Literally. I can't tell you. How long has it been? A little less than a decade and yet here I am.
...Still the same old brand new me.
You asked me to grow up and I did. I tried my best to, at least. And I thought I was pretty far up on the age thing... Physically, I most probably am, but I realize that, unfortunately that's all it is. I still haven't grown up like I was supposed to. I'm still letting the little things get to me. And I'm still as clumsy as ever. Tripping over everything when I should be walking straight with my head held high.
You got to hand it to me though. I got the stillness part right down to a T. Haha. I know, right? The woman who can't sit still, is sitting for a portrait by an artist who is never going to start painting. That's gotta be irony at its best.
Of course, I'm sure you're not surprised by all of this. You were always the one who had so much insight... You were so aware of everything it surprised me. It made me wonder whether you installed a hidden camera in my apartment. There was no way you could know the things that you knew.
But that's your gift, I guess.
...And mine is probably... Falling in love with the wrong person in the wrong place at the wrong time. It could be a curse, but I can't be certain.
Yeah yeah. I'm being overly dramatic, I know you hate that. You were always the realistic one. Blunt. Honest. You brought me back down when I was flying way too high.
I wish you could have been the one. You brought balance in my life. You brought sanity into my head, of course, that didn't stay. From my point of view, you and me ending up together made the best sense... But if I took a step back or that if I stepped away from my body, and looked at the big picture, you and me ending up together would have been terribly exhausting for you.
I am a piece of work. But you sure made it look easy.
But that was a long time ago... And here I am now with mostly the same problems and I'm asking for your help. How do I fastfoward from here? I hate this part. The part where I want to break away, but I can't. That's always been the problem with me. I deal with absolutes... And unfortunately, absolutes can't be applied here. It's blackmail at its sweetest form. Haha. I laugh, but it's not funny.
And yes, that's another problem, I laugh at everything. I never take anything too seriously, I just let it brew until it boils over and when it does I'm naturally shocked. And you look at me telling me silently that I should have known it was going to happen. And just like every other time, you'd be right.
I should've known.
As Always,
D.
How bad is this that I've resorted to this? Must be pretty bad. I can't tell you just how much I miss you. Literally. I can't tell you. How long has it been? A little less than a decade and yet here I am.
...Still the same old brand new me.
You asked me to grow up and I did. I tried my best to, at least. And I thought I was pretty far up on the age thing... Physically, I most probably am, but I realize that, unfortunately that's all it is. I still haven't grown up like I was supposed to. I'm still letting the little things get to me. And I'm still as clumsy as ever. Tripping over everything when I should be walking straight with my head held high.
You got to hand it to me though. I got the stillness part right down to a T. Haha. I know, right? The woman who can't sit still, is sitting for a portrait by an artist who is never going to start painting. That's gotta be irony at its best.
Of course, I'm sure you're not surprised by all of this. You were always the one who had so much insight... You were so aware of everything it surprised me. It made me wonder whether you installed a hidden camera in my apartment. There was no way you could know the things that you knew.
But that's your gift, I guess.
...And mine is probably... Falling in love with the wrong person in the wrong place at the wrong time. It could be a curse, but I can't be certain.
Yeah yeah. I'm being overly dramatic, I know you hate that. You were always the realistic one. Blunt. Honest. You brought me back down when I was flying way too high.
I wish you could have been the one. You brought balance in my life. You brought sanity into my head, of course, that didn't stay. From my point of view, you and me ending up together made the best sense... But if I took a step back or that if I stepped away from my body, and looked at the big picture, you and me ending up together would have been terribly exhausting for you.
I am a piece of work. But you sure made it look easy.
But that was a long time ago... And here I am now with mostly the same problems and I'm asking for your help. How do I fastfoward from here? I hate this part. The part where I want to break away, but I can't. That's always been the problem with me. I deal with absolutes... And unfortunately, absolutes can't be applied here. It's blackmail at its sweetest form. Haha. I laugh, but it's not funny.
And yes, that's another problem, I laugh at everything. I never take anything too seriously, I just let it brew until it boils over and when it does I'm naturally shocked. And you look at me telling me silently that I should have known it was going to happen. And just like every other time, you'd be right.
I should've known.
As Always,
D.
Barely Breathing...
"You really had me going, wishing on a star..."
This song has been on loop for about an hour now...
"Well it must have been that yesterday was the day that I was born..."
I realized that this song could be applied to many parts of my life...
"I used to be so certain and I can't figure out. What is this attraction? I can only feel the pain."
Parts of my life that I've forgotten...
"There's nothing left to reason and only you to blame. Will it ever change?"
...And parts of my life that I'd rather forget.
"I've come to find that I may never know your changing mind."
...But for right now, as I listen to this song, I'm thinking of you.
"Cause I am barely breathing. And I can't find the air. I don't know who I'm kidding imagining you care..."
...Who am I kidding really?
"And I could stand here waiting, a fool for another day."
I'm a fool. Again.
"But I don't suppose it's worth the price, worth the price that I would pay..."
But to be that fool for you is worth it, I guess. I'm sure that one day, I'll forget you. Not only because I have to but because I want to...
"...But I'm thinking it over anyway."
This song has been on loop for about an hour now...
"Well it must have been that yesterday was the day that I was born..."
I realized that this song could be applied to many parts of my life...
"I used to be so certain and I can't figure out. What is this attraction? I can only feel the pain."
Parts of my life that I've forgotten...
"There's nothing left to reason and only you to blame. Will it ever change?"
...And parts of my life that I'd rather forget.
"I've come to find that I may never know your changing mind."
...But for right now, as I listen to this song, I'm thinking of you.
"Cause I am barely breathing. And I can't find the air. I don't know who I'm kidding imagining you care..."
...Who am I kidding really?
"And I could stand here waiting, a fool for another day."
I'm a fool. Again.
"But I don't suppose it's worth the price, worth the price that I would pay..."
But to be that fool for you is worth it, I guess. I'm sure that one day, I'll forget you. Not only because I have to but because I want to...
"...But I'm thinking it over anyway."
Friday, July 10, 2009
Dear François,
"This is getting ree-dee-cuo-lohs, uh...", ala Phoebe's French accent.
Haha. Do you remember that? Pfsh. I bet you don't. You don't seem to remember a lot of things...
I want to hate you. But I know I'd regret it a few seconds later. You're one of those that I just can't seem to hate. Of course, my ex was the same way, until he did something despicable, although, I still didn't really hate him then. I was apathetic, but I guess that kind constitutes as hate, sort of.
I wish you'd do something despicable, so hating you or being apathetic towards you wouldn't feel like such a crime.
That's the problem with girls like me... If you're good, we're better. And if you're bad, we're worse. It's a clean and simple fact that we just live to mirror a better version of who you are... It's what we are. It's who we are.
...It's who I am. I'm a mirror and right now you're image is looking rather ridiculous.
I'd hate you... But of course, I'm a big fan of ridiculous.
As Always,
D.
Haha. Do you remember that? Pfsh. I bet you don't. You don't seem to remember a lot of things...
I want to hate you. But I know I'd regret it a few seconds later. You're one of those that I just can't seem to hate. Of course, my ex was the same way, until he did something despicable, although, I still didn't really hate him then. I was apathetic, but I guess that kind constitutes as hate, sort of.
I wish you'd do something despicable, so hating you or being apathetic towards you wouldn't feel like such a crime.
That's the problem with girls like me... If you're good, we're better. And if you're bad, we're worse. It's a clean and simple fact that we just live to mirror a better version of who you are... It's what we are. It's who we are.
...It's who I am. I'm a mirror and right now you're image is looking rather ridiculous.
I'd hate you... But of course, I'm a big fan of ridiculous.
As Always,
D.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Danabelle in Working KIKAY Shorts
Sooo... I've been working on stuff... I know, I'm slow. I'm sorry.
How have y'all been?
Please visit Tunog Pinoy Radio.
Haha. Plug itey!
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Yesterday...
These came:
The two other envelopes will be discussed in detail on Monday. Let's open the box first, shall we?
Hihi.
Freebies!!! May reflector thingymagig na akey! ...Kung kelan mainit na at hindi na pwede magshoot sa labas. Alright! Hahaha. Kidding. For reals, I love all of it. Sarap ng feeling. Haha.
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How have y'all been?
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Teatah and me at the expo last Saturday.
Please visit Tunog Pinoy Radio.Haha. Plug itey!
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Yesterday...
These came:
The two other envelopes will be discussed in detail on Monday. Let's open the box first, shall we?
Hihi.
Freebies!!! May reflector thingymagig na akey! ...Kung kelan mainit na at hindi na pwede magshoot sa labas. Alright! Hahaha. Kidding. For reals, I love all of it. Sarap ng feeling. Haha.------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I'm supposed to be shooting the video today for Make-up Monday, but the office called and I have to go there. LOL.
But I'll work on it. Hehehe.
Graceegirl and I are trying to organize a Kikay Konference on the 24th.
If you'd like to come, let us know. We're trying to get a headcount, so we can organize the giveaways.
Please let us know if you'll be attending by commenting here. Or you can send me and Grace a PM.
Thanks.
See you soon, girly girls!
Oooh! Oooh!
Yesterday, I saw "Then She Found Me".
I loved it. If you still haven't seen it. Go git.
Anyhoos, I gotsta go get ready to go to work. Hahaysss. Napostpone tuloy ang munggobread ko. Hahaha.
But I'll work on it. Hehehe.
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KALLING ALL KIKAYS!!!
Graceegirl and I are trying to organize a Kikay Konference on the 24th.
If you'd like to come, let us know. We're trying to get a headcount, so we can organize the giveaways.
Please let us know if you'll be attending by commenting here. Or you can send me and Grace a PM.
Thanks.
See you soon, girly girls!
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Oooh! Oooh!
Yesterday, I saw "Then She Found Me".
I loved it. If you still haven't seen it. Go git.
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Anyhoos, I gotsta go get ready to go to work. Hahaysss. Napostpone tuloy ang munggobread ko. Hahaha.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Kwarto - Act 1, Scene 1 (Part 3)
(Vignette over monologue or monologue over vignette... However way you would like to put it. Ganon parin. Tagal na nito, meeeen.)
WINTER
At ayun na nga. Pinaghiwalay na kami. Gusto kong mag-wala ng binigay sa'min ang seatplan.
(Winter turns into The Hulk and tears up the classroom.)
Pero mabait ako eh.
(Winter accepts seat plan and smiles.)
Pagkaupong-pagkaupo ko gusto kong umiyak dahil hindi si Summer ang katabi ko.
(Winter sobbing literal buckets of tears while his new seatmate looks on.)
Pero macho ako, eh. Kaya't tinanggap ko na lang na ganon talaga.
Ok naman... Makikita ko parin naman s'ya sa class, eh.
(Winter waves "Hi", but Summer doesn't seem to notice.)
Makakausap ko parin naman s'ya pag may assignment.
(Winter tries to talk to Summer, but she is surrounded by other friends.)
...At makakasama ko parin naman sya pag lunch.
(Winter sits next to Summer. Turns his back to take his baon from his bag and offers her a sandwich. When he turns around, she is no longer there. In fantasy, Winter screams in frustration ala Stanley screaming "Stella" in A Streetcar Named Desire.)
...Na-depress na naman ako.
(Winter comes home from school)
Winter's Mom
Anak! Pagsabihan mo nga itong kapatid mong si Snow... Nagb-boyfriend na. Ang bata bata pa.
Snow
Mommy... Ano ba? Textmate lang eh, boyfriend na agad.
Winter
(Super litanya)
Snow, kung sino man yang ka-text mo... Sabihin mo sa kanya, wag s'yang torpe... Dahil hindi n'ya alam kung kelan ka biglang ililipat ng cellphone provider at hinding hindi ka na n'ya makakatext kahit kailan. At pag nangyari yun, hindi n'ya malalaman kung iiyak s'ya o magd-dabog o mababaliw o maglilitanya sa pamilya n'yang wala namang kinalaman sa storya. (Slams room door.)
Winter's Mom
Eyng?
Snow
(Whispers while texting.)
Wag ka daw torpe sabi ni Kuya.
Winter's Mom
Akin na nga yang cellphone na yan.
Hindi ko maintindihan... Ayoko naman talaga kay Summer. In fact bwiset na bwiset ako sa kanya.
(Summer tickles Winter.)
Nakakainis s'ya.
(Summer copies from Winter's test paper and smiles adorably at him.)
Naiinis ako sa kanya.
(Summer smokes surreptitiously inside the classroom and when the teacher catches her, she points to Winter.)
Nakakainis talaga s'ya.
...Pero nam-miss ko s'ya.
Yung amoy ng buhok n'ya pag umaga... Parang pinaghalong kape at cinnamon na may konting yosi.
(Summer sits down next to Winter and her hair flows in slow motion.)
Yung amoy n'ya... Oo, tama. Nam-miss ko yung amoy n'ya. At dahil ayoko parin i-admit sa sarili ko na mahal ko na s'ya... Inisip ko na baka tinamaan lang ako sa amoy na yun.
...Kaya nagsimula akong magkape.
(Winter drinks coffee and grimaces at the taste. "Ang pakla", he mutters, but continues to drink.)
...Ang tagal kong hinanap sa palengke, grocery, at kung sa'n sa'n pa yun Cinnamon.
(Winter in the market smelling all types of spices.)
...At nung nahanap ko bumili ako ng isang kilo.
(Winter comes in from buying the groceries.)
Winter
Mommy! Andito na ang pinabili mo.
Winter's Mom
Salamat, anak. O tikman mo 'tong sinigang, favorite mo.
Winter
Tastes... Sarap!
(Hides cinnamon behind his back and places it in sinigang when his Mom isn't looking.)
(At dinner)
Winter
Sarap mo talaga magluto, Mommy!
(The rest of the family grimaces.)
Winter's Mom
Ba't gan'to lasa nito?
(Fast forward to a few weeks)
Winter's Dad
Honey, wag kang magagalit... Pero baket laging lasang cinnamon ang pagkain natin?
Winter's Mom
Hindi ko alam. Buong kusina nilinis ko na hindi ko alam kung sa'n nanggagaling yan.
At nagsimula na rin akong manigarilyo.
(Winter smokes cigarette and coughs.)
After about two months naging ok na ako. Ok na ok na talaga...
(In slow motion, Winter comes to school looking like a bad boy, drinking coffee and smoking a cigarette.)
Summer? Pfsh. Summer who?
(Winter continues walking like a badboy, until his walk is halted by a teacher who scolds him in a high screechy fastforward voice. And he goes back looking like he used to.)
...Pero totoo ok na talaga ako.
...Ok na sana.
Until dumating si Sunny.
(Sunny walks into the classroom. And love theme from Tchaikovsky's Romeo & Juliet plays. All the girls swoon.)
...At itinabi s'ya kay Summer.
Pero actually ok pa non. Magkatabi lang naman sila eh...
Until...
(In slow motion, a close up of Summer's finger comes closer to Sunny's side to tickle him like she used to tickle Winter. Heartbeat sounds, and Winter's eyes widen and in fantasy he screams "Noooo..." in slow motion.)
Ginawa n'ya kay Sunny lahat ng ginagawa n'ya sa'kin noon.
...Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko.
(Winter smokes a bunch of cigarettes.)
...Baket ba ako nagkakaganto?
(Winter drinks coffee. Waaaayyy too much. And he is seen as on edge and nervous.)
...Baket?
(Winter sniffs cinnamon. Isn't content. He starts eating it by the spoonful.)
Na-miss ko s'ya.
Mahal ko s'ya.
...Hanggang sa hindi ko na nakayanan... Umamin ako sa kanya.
(Winter approaches Summer)
Winter
Pwede ba tayong mag-usap?
Summer
Oui. (Smiles adorably.)
Winter
(Kinilig, but goes on.) Summer, mahal kita. Hindi ko kayang mabuhay ng wala ka. Nababaliw na ako kakaisip sa'yo...
Summer
(Looks at him disapprovingly and says) You're that guy.
Winter
What guy?
Summer
The guy who doesn't know what he's got until it's gone. Ba't ngayon mo lang sinasabi 'to sa'kin? Patay na patay ako sa'yo last year, hindi mo ako pinapansin. (Starts speaking in French.) I'm over you. I've been trying to get over you for the longest time. Tapos ngayon ka mai-inlove sa'kin? Bonne chance.
(Summer walks away and it starts to rain.)
Winter
(Looks on in confusion) Ano daw? (Looks up at the sky) Baket ba kailangan umulan pag dramatic ang scene??? BAKET??? BAKET?!?!
(Winter turns into The Hulk and tears up the classroom.)
Pero mabait ako eh.
(Winter accepts seat plan and smiles.)
Pagkaupong-pagkaupo ko gusto kong umiyak dahil hindi si Summer ang katabi ko.
(Winter sobbing literal buckets of tears while his new seatmate looks on.)
Pero macho ako, eh. Kaya't tinanggap ko na lang na ganon talaga.
Ok naman... Makikita ko parin naman s'ya sa class, eh.
(Winter waves "Hi", but Summer doesn't seem to notice.)
Makakausap ko parin naman s'ya pag may assignment.
(Winter tries to talk to Summer, but she is surrounded by other friends.)
...At makakasama ko parin naman sya pag lunch.
(Winter sits next to Summer. Turns his back to take his baon from his bag and offers her a sandwich. When he turns around, she is no longer there. In fantasy, Winter screams in frustration ala Stanley screaming "Stella" in A Streetcar Named Desire.)
...Na-depress na naman ako.
(Winter comes home from school)
Winter's Mom
Anak! Pagsabihan mo nga itong kapatid mong si Snow... Nagb-boyfriend na. Ang bata bata pa.
Snow
Mommy... Ano ba? Textmate lang eh, boyfriend na agad.
Winter
(Super litanya)
Snow, kung sino man yang ka-text mo... Sabihin mo sa kanya, wag s'yang torpe... Dahil hindi n'ya alam kung kelan ka biglang ililipat ng cellphone provider at hinding hindi ka na n'ya makakatext kahit kailan. At pag nangyari yun, hindi n'ya malalaman kung iiyak s'ya o magd-dabog o mababaliw o maglilitanya sa pamilya n'yang wala namang kinalaman sa storya. (Slams room door.)
Winter's Mom
Eyng?
Snow
(Whispers while texting.)
Wag ka daw torpe sabi ni Kuya.
Winter's Mom
Akin na nga yang cellphone na yan.
Hindi ko maintindihan... Ayoko naman talaga kay Summer. In fact bwiset na bwiset ako sa kanya.
(Summer tickles Winter.)
Nakakainis s'ya.
(Summer copies from Winter's test paper and smiles adorably at him.)
Naiinis ako sa kanya.
(Summer smokes surreptitiously inside the classroom and when the teacher catches her, she points to Winter.)
Nakakainis talaga s'ya.
...Pero nam-miss ko s'ya.
Yung amoy ng buhok n'ya pag umaga... Parang pinaghalong kape at cinnamon na may konting yosi.
(Summer sits down next to Winter and her hair flows in slow motion.)
Yung amoy n'ya... Oo, tama. Nam-miss ko yung amoy n'ya. At dahil ayoko parin i-admit sa sarili ko na mahal ko na s'ya... Inisip ko na baka tinamaan lang ako sa amoy na yun.
...Kaya nagsimula akong magkape.
(Winter drinks coffee and grimaces at the taste. "Ang pakla", he mutters, but continues to drink.)
...Ang tagal kong hinanap sa palengke, grocery, at kung sa'n sa'n pa yun Cinnamon.
(Winter in the market smelling all types of spices.)
...At nung nahanap ko bumili ako ng isang kilo.
(Winter comes in from buying the groceries.)
Winter
Mommy! Andito na ang pinabili mo.
Winter's Mom
Salamat, anak. O tikman mo 'tong sinigang, favorite mo.
Winter
Tastes... Sarap!
(Hides cinnamon behind his back and places it in sinigang when his Mom isn't looking.)
(At dinner)
Winter
Sarap mo talaga magluto, Mommy!
(The rest of the family grimaces.)
Winter's Mom
Ba't gan'to lasa nito?
(Fast forward to a few weeks)
Winter's Dad
Honey, wag kang magagalit... Pero baket laging lasang cinnamon ang pagkain natin?
Winter's Mom
Hindi ko alam. Buong kusina nilinis ko na hindi ko alam kung sa'n nanggagaling yan.
At nagsimula na rin akong manigarilyo.
(Winter smokes cigarette and coughs.)
After about two months naging ok na ako. Ok na ok na talaga...
(In slow motion, Winter comes to school looking like a bad boy, drinking coffee and smoking a cigarette.)
Summer? Pfsh. Summer who?
(Winter continues walking like a badboy, until his walk is halted by a teacher who scolds him in a high screechy fastforward voice. And he goes back looking like he used to.)
...Pero totoo ok na talaga ako.
...Ok na sana.
Until dumating si Sunny.
(Sunny walks into the classroom. And love theme from Tchaikovsky's Romeo & Juliet plays. All the girls swoon.)
...At itinabi s'ya kay Summer.
Pero actually ok pa non. Magkatabi lang naman sila eh...
Until...
(In slow motion, a close up of Summer's finger comes closer to Sunny's side to tickle him like she used to tickle Winter. Heartbeat sounds, and Winter's eyes widen and in fantasy he screams "Noooo..." in slow motion.)
Ginawa n'ya kay Sunny lahat ng ginagawa n'ya sa'kin noon.
...Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko.
(Winter smokes a bunch of cigarettes.)
...Baket ba ako nagkakaganto?
(Winter drinks coffee. Waaaayyy too much. And he is seen as on edge and nervous.)
...Baket?
(Winter sniffs cinnamon. Isn't content. He starts eating it by the spoonful.)
Na-miss ko s'ya.
Mahal ko s'ya.
...Hanggang sa hindi ko na nakayanan... Umamin ako sa kanya.
(Winter approaches Summer)
Winter
Pwede ba tayong mag-usap?
Summer
Oui. (Smiles adorably.)
Winter
(Kinilig, but goes on.) Summer, mahal kita. Hindi ko kayang mabuhay ng wala ka. Nababaliw na ako kakaisip sa'yo...
Summer
(Looks at him disapprovingly and says) You're that guy.
Winter
What guy?
Summer
The guy who doesn't know what he's got until it's gone. Ba't ngayon mo lang sinasabi 'to sa'kin? Patay na patay ako sa'yo last year, hindi mo ako pinapansin. (Starts speaking in French.) I'm over you. I've been trying to get over you for the longest time. Tapos ngayon ka mai-inlove sa'kin? Bonne chance.
(Summer walks away and it starts to rain.)
Winter
(Looks on in confusion) Ano daw? (Looks up at the sky) Baket ba kailangan umulan pag dramatic ang scene??? BAKET??? BAKET?!?!
Dear Sequoia,
I don't know.
As far as names go, this feels like it would suit you.
I dreamt of you. You asked me what I wanted and I returned the question without answering it, but before you could answer, you woke me up.
I guess that's how it will always be...
Me, dreaming of you. And you, waking me up from that dream.
As Always,
D.
As far as names go, this feels like it would suit you.
I dreamt of you. You asked me what I wanted and I returned the question without answering it, but before you could answer, you woke me up.
I guess that's how it will always be...
Me, dreaming of you. And you, waking me up from that dream.
As Always,
D.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Dear John,
You know what? I'm really glad that you don't read this and that even if you do, you won't want to understand it. Because what I'm about to say makes it hard knowing that I'd be saying it right to your face, rather than just plainly doing it behind your back or under your nose...
I wronged you. Think of me what you will. I am a sad and sorry pathetic loser for allowing myself to sink that low. For that, I'd just like to apologize. But you know what? This really isn't even about that. Although, I really am sorry for allowing my inquisitive nature to take me that far. This is about giving up what I wasn't supposed to give in to in the first place. ...You.
You were right... You can't choose who you love. ...But you can choose how you love and I'm choosing to love you rightly. So, I'm giving up, because it is what's right. I never should have given in to what I knew fate couldn't follow through with. What does it matter how it appears to the world? You will never love me.
I want to pick a fight. I want an argument. I want you to be angry. I want you to be flaming mad, because I can't have the emotion that I want from you, I'd settle for anything, even if it is anger... Something... Anything! Just a little emotion, because you seem to have none. But there really is nothing to fight about. I placed this upon myself. This is all my fault. I chose to give in. I chose to fall in love. I chose to get hurt. And as sad as that may seem, it's alright. It's ok, because I'm choosing to give up... I'm choosing to stand up from where I fell and hopefully walk away with nothing more than a scratch.
As Always,
D.
I wronged you. Think of me what you will. I am a sad and sorry pathetic loser for allowing myself to sink that low. For that, I'd just like to apologize. But you know what? This really isn't even about that. Although, I really am sorry for allowing my inquisitive nature to take me that far. This is about giving up what I wasn't supposed to give in to in the first place. ...You.
You were right... You can't choose who you love. ...But you can choose how you love and I'm choosing to love you rightly. So, I'm giving up, because it is what's right. I never should have given in to what I knew fate couldn't follow through with. What does it matter how it appears to the world? You will never love me.
I want to pick a fight. I want an argument. I want you to be angry. I want you to be flaming mad, because I can't have the emotion that I want from you, I'd settle for anything, even if it is anger... Something... Anything! Just a little emotion, because you seem to have none. But there really is nothing to fight about. I placed this upon myself. This is all my fault. I chose to give in. I chose to fall in love. I chose to get hurt. And as sad as that may seem, it's alright. It's ok, because I'm choosing to give up... I'm choosing to stand up from where I fell and hopefully walk away with nothing more than a scratch.
As Always,
D.
Dear Miss,
"What you don't know won't hurt you.", so they say. And you know what? They were right. It was ages ago, I know. So... Ba't ba ako nagpapa-apekto? Sino ka na nga ba ulit sa buhay ko?
Haha. Tsk.
Wala.
Wala ka na sa buhay ko. And you know what? It's a great thing. Hindi ko kailangan ng mga plastic na katulad mo. You're the worst kind, too... Ikaw yung plastic na feeling righteous. Akala mo lagi kang tama... Pero ang totoo n'yan may tama ka lang.
I was right about you. From the first time to the last... I should have trusted my instincts. I should have just cut you off like I meant to.
You just wanted me close, because you hated me that much.
I pity the likes of you. And I hope that one day you'll realize just how wrong you have been and how your heart should have been in a better place.
I also hope that you never contact me ever again... Your hypocrisy sickens me and you make me want to regurgitate my insides until I'm hollow.
I know I'll probably regret writing this letter. But I'm writing it anyway, because that's just how mad I am.
As Always,
D.
Haha. Tsk.
Wala.
Wala ka na sa buhay ko. And you know what? It's a great thing. Hindi ko kailangan ng mga plastic na katulad mo. You're the worst kind, too... Ikaw yung plastic na feeling righteous. Akala mo lagi kang tama... Pero ang totoo n'yan may tama ka lang.
I was right about you. From the first time to the last... I should have trusted my instincts. I should have just cut you off like I meant to.
You just wanted me close, because you hated me that much.
I pity the likes of you. And I hope that one day you'll realize just how wrong you have been and how your heart should have been in a better place.
I also hope that you never contact me ever again... Your hypocrisy sickens me and you make me want to regurgitate my insides until I'm hollow.
I know I'll probably regret writing this letter. But I'm writing it anyway, because that's just how mad I am.
As Always,
D.
Monday, July 6, 2009
Danabelle in Abdominal Shorts
Aloha!
:D
How are all y'all this fine morning... errr noon?
I hope you don't answer by saying:
Come in, relax, and unwind...
For lunch we'll have:
A healthy entree...
And an even healthier main course.
LOL.
Oh and this made me LOL so bad, IDKW.
The Abdominal Snowman.
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Postsecret!!! :)
Sadly, that doesn't ring true for me. :(
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J&J got married! :)
I'm still in the process of finishing up their photos...
I'm actually supposed to be doing them now, but I'm doing this shorts thing.
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M&G came over. :) We had dinner and a lot of chikahan. Fun fun fun.
I miss those two.
...Oh and they gave me these for a belated birthday present.
Love ittt! :D Hihihi. I can't wait to testdrive these babies. Hihihi.
Thank you, guys. See you on Friday. Mwahmwahmwah.
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Saturday...
Love her.
Love her more. :)
Hihihi.
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Sunday...
We went over and visited K.
Yesterday...
Samson came over. I cut his hair with a pair of dull scissors in the yellow light.
We didn't have any wonderbread, so I fed him chicken.
He told me that I'd done all right. But he didn't kiss me 'til the morning light.
...Ewww. Haha.
Nanood na lang kami ng dalawang baliw. ...Parang kami lang. Nyahahaha.
Today...
Hmmm. I'm not sure of what's in store yet.
I wants to go fix my room and my mook-ap... My mook-ap misses me. Haven't been touching them for a while... Alangan naman kasing magmook-ap ako sa bahay duhbuh?
Anyhoos, I hope y'all have a fabulous day.
Lovelovelovelove.
:D
How are all y'all this fine morning... errr noon?
I hope you don't answer by saying:
Come in, relax, and unwind...For lunch we'll have:
A healthy entree...And an even healthier main course.LOL.
Oh and this made me LOL so bad, IDKW.
The Abdominal Snowman.--------------------------------------------------------------------------
Postsecret!!! :)
Sadly, that doesn't ring true for me. :(--------------------------------------------------------------------------
Thursday...
J&J got married! :)
I'm still in the process of finishing up their photos...
I'm actually supposed to be doing them now, but I'm doing this shorts thing.
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Friday...
M&G came over. :) We had dinner and a lot of chikahan. Fun fun fun.
I miss those two.
...Oh and they gave me these for a belated birthday present.
Love ittt! :D Hihihi. I can't wait to testdrive these babies. Hihihi.
Thank you, guys. See you on Friday. Mwahmwahmwah.
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Saturday...
Teatah took me to Sitti.
Love her.Love her more. :)Hihihi.
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Sunday...
We went over and visited K.
I so love switchfairy, I wanted to take it home. LOL.
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Yesterday...
Samson came over. I cut his hair with a pair of dull scissors in the yellow light.
We didn't have any wonderbread, so I fed him chicken.
He told me that I'd done all right. But he didn't kiss me 'til the morning light.
...Ewww. Haha.
Nanood na lang kami ng dalawang baliw. ...Parang kami lang. Nyahahaha.
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Today...
Hmmm. I'm not sure of what's in store yet.
I wants to go fix my room and my mook-ap... My mook-ap misses me. Haven't been touching them for a while... Alangan naman kasing magmook-ap ako sa bahay duhbuh?
Anyhoos, I hope y'all have a fabulous day.
Lovelovelovelove.
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